Some of you might remember this thread http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=433764 where I rambled about the dude I like, etc. etc. etc. Long story short, he went out of town. Got a new old lady. Was gonna go to Cali. Got to Kansas City, broke up with her, came back. He got back today, and he's everything I remembered. He's cheerful. He's happy. He's a sweetheart. He's exactly who I thought he would be. So why have my feelings changed? I was euphoric when I heard he was back, got stoked when I saw him, was glad to be with him, but the second I left for home I was crushed. Heartbroken. Devastated. Had I made the reunion so big in my head that the real thing couldn't compare? Have I changed so much in those few months that I'm just not interested? Has he changed without me noticing? Is the bond gone? Or do I just need time to get reacquainted before I try to delve into my feelings again? I feel so shitty about it. I mean, just this morning I wrote this fucking song about him: He has knuckle tattoos and strong convictions but he knows life's no competition he walks his own path with a Peter Pan complex fearing no wrath, why is everything so complex? Whoa-0h I wanna change the way he looks at me Whoa-oh Why can't he see Every smile, every grin makes him look young again Every smile, every grin makes me feel so warm again and every time I look in his eyes I wanna live forever I wanna live forever He has dirty hands and a dirty mohawk dirty words and a confident walk He makes himself strong, limps through all the pain and if it goes wrong, he'll just start over again. Whoa-oh I have the right to know Whoa-oh why won't this feeling go Every smile, every grin makes him look young again Every smile, every grin makes me feel so warm again Every smile, every grin makes him look young again Every smile, every grin makes me feel so warm again and every time I look in his eyes I wanna live forever I wanna live forever I wanna live forever.
I found out it's true when they say "You can never go back"; that sucks when it was so awesome back there. So, now you've got to see if you want to go forward. That's all. Really.
it's kind of weird how "old lady" means both significant other and mom. and also old lady on occasion.
