I guess I'm an alcoholic.. My whole family says I am.. I guess I am. Started drinking around 16, did it for fun until my girlfriend cheated on me.. then a month later my brother died. went nuts I guess. I'm 19 years old and have 3 underage consumptions. My family brushes it off like its nothing and that I need to find 'secret' help.. I feel like this is who I am. I just like to drink. I like to get fucked up because I hate this so called reality. Lost my job about 2 months ago. Hard to find work, just finished up my GED yesterday.. really proud of that but 3/4ths of the time I can't leave my house because people scare me. I feel like everyone is judging me and it has made me a nervous wreck. When I'm not drinking, it is not any better... Seeing a counsler, have PTSD and all this other crap.. My true confession is that I'm a fucked up individual and nobody but my family knows..
you know too ...so do something about it...i dont have experience with drinking too much but it seems to me knowing and admitting you have a problem is half the battle.. ......my advice is switch to weed...way easier to not be a fuck up on weedand stay off them pills good luck
Stick with the counseling. Do everything you can to help yourself and to heal yourself. You can pull yourself together. You can get better. Fucked up is very real but it doesn't have to be forever. Make intelligent choices. Be good to yourself; be patient with yourself. You will find that you are worth the effort.
thanks guys. @rollingalong - I've smoked a LOT of weed the past few years. I'm on probation right now, been 7 months and only been tested once but I don't think it's worth the chance. I like to smoke but lately it makes me think in a really odd way.
Facing it is the first step. that takes courage as does following up on that step. Jo King's suggestion is a good one if you're serious about dealing with the issue and achieving some meaningful recovery. There are other avenues as well. Good luck to you.
Nobody understands drinking and drugging better than someone who has been there, done that, and bought the t-shirt. Whether you really want to stop or not the information below is provided for you to consider and to use as you see fit. http://recoveryissexy.com/ Very intelligent lady runs this, good info, and funny, too http://www.aa.org/subpage.cfm?page=71 Is AA for you? Some questions you might find interesting.
Admitting you have a problem is the first step , from then on its up to you .By admitting you have a problem you start taking control of your life again.A few of us have BTDT so you are not alone in this process . peace be with you
My stepdaughter ended up in the hospital once at age 18 because of a drinking problem, and she has severe bipolar disorder on top of it. She got stabilized on psychiatric medication, and started attending AA, and she has licked the alcohol problem. From what you're saying about the fear of judgment, I'm wondering if you might benefit from some form of psychiatric medication also - have you ever asked your counselor about this? I'm an alcoholic. I've been able to manage it, cuz it's not severe for me - but there was a time not long ago that it was getting to be a problem, and I had to give up the hard stuff. I've also had major emotional stresses for a long time...and it's tempting to numb the mind and body to escape. I know how it is. Just sayin - it's a hard road, but you can do it - and you need to do it. Best of luck.
I've only seen AA really work for one man, and he took every step to heart. COMPLETE change. It did wonderful things for him, but that is because he realized he needed to change, and he wanted to. Other people in my family have tried it, going in saying 'I don't have a problem, I just like to drink' and they got nowhere. Half of the people I know are alcoholics. Some of them are fine with it, and say it is just part of who they are. Some see it is a problem, but don't want to change. A rare few want to change, but don't think they can. And one actually turned everything around and turned from a terrible person to a wonderful person. I don't know what it is like to be an alcoholic, but I know what it is like to love one. I've watched people decay from this addiction, all trying to escape reality like you are. I really don't have any advice. Admitting it may be the first step to recovery, but the biggest step is realizing you WANT to change. Once you decide this, you can overcome it.
I know or have known many people with an alcohol problem. I've certainly got tendencies myself but because I'm so aware of how much havoc it can wreak I limit how often I drink. Most people don't realize its a problem until its too late, after they alienate everyone and their health starts to decline. The fact that you're admitting it now is a very good thing.
