Ok here is my current life. I have severe anxiety and have for close to 10 years. About 6 years ago 06' I was able to go out and do day labor to make a few dollars here and there but nothing for long my anxiety was too bad and getting worse(i would have multiple panic attacks on the job site). I had saved up just enough to try and get myself some help, and I did for the time being. I was told I had ptsd, and given some sedatives to help. I was too afraid I would become addicted to pills to take them on a regular basis, I was able to attend 2 therapy sessions before my money ran out. They charged on a sliding scale but you had to have some money to keep getting help(everything costs something in America). Since then I have moved in with family and been there for almost 6years. My family loves me and doesn't want to see me in the street, although they are emotionally abusive and always have been. In the past 5 years or so I have wanted nothing more than to just pack the few things I own and set out on the road(by myself since I do have any friends). I am afraid to even talk to my family anymore about wanting to leave because they always make me feel so guilty that I do not leave. What should I do here, I am in my 20's but only a child in my life experience and mindset. I love the outdoors it is the only place I am at ease, being alone is nothing new for me I have been for years almost a hermit. Do you think I can make it on my own? I know nothing of living on the road, but aren't those things you learn while on the road? I am terrified to pack up and leave not knowing which way to even walk or where to sleep but I have such a strong urge to go. So much so that I feel if I do not at least try for myself I will end up here forever.
I wish I could help you. There are some people here on Hip Forums that know about life on the road. They will come around soon, I'm sure. Be patient, young grasshopper.
What are you scared of? Of course you will make it - and if you don't, you will never know. It seems to me your family is the only thing holding you back.
I think yoga is the solution to every problem. There are different types of yoga for different types complexity.
i would suggest you seek free legal aid, so you can get social security disablity. if you are in the u.s.a. if you would tell me what state your in, and what city i can give better help.
If you suffer severe anxiety it may make things worse being homeless and penniless. You will be forced into some very confronting situations. Can you get some help for your condition from your parents? Far better to manage the illness first. Try some natural therapies if you don't want to take drugs. There are several herbs and teas plus nutritional supplements that could make a dramatic difference. I wish you luck, it's a horrible feeling anxiety, I sympathise.
Hi cloudsky sorry to hear all the trouble you are going through. I also live in the US so I know all to well the problems of getting health care if you don't have insurance. However there are options for you to get services that you can afford. These do varry greatly from state to state. If you want you can PM me just your state and county you live in. Ill be happy to send you whatever reasource information I have. I am sure I don't need to tell you that living with people who a mentally abusive isnt going to help your anxity much. Have you applied for any kind of assistance like public assistance or disability like, SSI or SSD? There are also programs that provide housing to people with disabilities. As for heading off into the wild while that maybe a tempting solution it could be dangerous if you don't know how to survive. Have you considered doing some short trips camping to work on your survival skills before going all out. It would give you a breaks from the chaos at home and give you a chance to see if that life is for you. There is a lot to learning how to survive in the wild. Hope this helps your a little bit. The best advice I can give is don't do anything impulsive. Carefully consider all of your options. If I might suggest taking some steps to learn how to manage your anxity.
