Psychedelic Bump XV

Goog point gb. I'd like to be open and accept the fear as it arises within myself but also make a safe space so i don't create unneccesary fear causing situations (like the grime on shower tiles etc). Facing fears and accepting them is what allows an individual to expand, and i certainly felt expanded last night

 

One week ago (7 days) was my first trial at about half this dose level. I had tolerance from recent dosings of LSD, DMT and MXE at that time.

Today I dosed twice as much as last week - I have not touched MXE or any psychedelics for 7 days. I'm presuming no tolerance.

 

Touching briefly on the topic of fears coming up and/or traumatic journeys. Yeah, remember this is why you dose right? Not looking for that rough ride per se but it is a dice role, it is like that proverbial box of chocolates. Maybe the answer is different for you but wow the novelty keeps me coming back for more and that novelty includes being FIRMLY racked over some psychedelic coals. I had one of my worst trips ever in April 2011 - 21 mins in Hyperspace Hell. I cannot even begin to describe it other than to say I had trouble not crying for 3 weeks.

It took me 6+ months to fully inegrate that MONSTER.

It was one of the best things I have ever done. One of the best things to ever happen to me. To have to look in that mirror. To have to examine those deep dusty corners of my own mind, of my ugliest truths and fears to face it and come out with photographic and photoreal memories. Then what to do?

Eat, sleep, seek routine and loved ones, nutrition, love and nature. Meditate. I entered a low-energy depression - was very ground down. But, I came out the other end a new person. Integrated in a way never achieved before with anything. Finally and for sure on the other and accepting end of the midlife crises that re-started all of this for me.

I could rant on. I just want to re-iterate that it's worth it sometimes to take that rough ride and face our fears and that deep and meaningful healing and radically strengthening (I have answers now that I never knew before and it is all so simple.) integration is quite possible if you are willing to face the negrado (alchemy term), the shit, the ugliness, the soul-wrenching and will-destroying fears.

Peace & Love - You are all brave warriors and explorers on the crashing wavefront of consciousness. This sometimes comes with high prices to be paid.

 

QFT :sunny:

 

felix, glad you enjoyed your first 4aces trip, 40mg is a great dose. though i would never take a tryptamine in a strip club >_> lol too much negative stuff going on. i think something like 2c-b would be better for that

10mg oral. I did a lot of research reading trip reports on 2ci before i dosed it and honestly there are sooooo many of highly significant trips like yours. yet somehow it doesn't get brought up with the other typical psychedelic giants. i think it's a less "pleasant" psychedelic than others, it was more "in your face" for me like how LSD can be.

Yeah man, this stuff impressed me. I was expecting basically a kind of colder 2c-b, but of course its its own thing. Volupta said that 2c-b brings up issues for her, while simultaneously showing her many different ways of looking at the issues and also immediately presenting her with a/the solution to the issue. with 2c-i it was kind of inverted, i felt like it wanted me to address every single issue i was having in my life without providing me with any "help". there was no fuzzy warmth enveloping me like with bee, i really had to fend for myself. this may also be dosage, but i felt like the euphoria was also kind of "in passing". I feel that 2c-b, 2c-i, and 2c-e all fall on a certain spectrum of "humanness", where 2c-b is the most human, emotional, warm, safe, loving, and 2c-e is the most alien, cold, uncaring, abstract one. 2c-i snuggled in neatly in between them, not completely distant from the every day human condition but also not a joyous embrace of human warmth either. It brought up some really sensitive stuff right to the surface that i finally could talk over with volupta and get it out of the way and for that i will forever respect 2c-i. not sure if 2c-b would have had the "guts" to do it in a way, and LSD might have been a little like swatting a fly with a singularity. huge psychtherapeutic value!!!

Volupta was getting very strong visuals too especially considering the dose and her SSRIs. I was getting some good suggestibility and can tell that there is major visual stuff that goes on in the higher doses.

I like to take a benchmark dose for substances, like what i would consider to be a dose to give to someone for their first time on a psychedelic. also with 2c-i timing was an issue, the length is quite variable, 4-12 hours, and i had work early the next day, so i didn't want to be closer to the 12 mark, even though it turned out that way anyways (not the peak though, that was only about 5 hours).

I would skip the H and MXE. Or do LSD + MXE. I'm wary of doing mxe + mdma for some reason, i feel it would be too much on the blood pressure. you should just skip the H in general man, this is like watching a bad movie where you can see the ending coming right in the opening credits.

Noted :sifone:

Awesome :sunny:

It might be my imagination / a million other things but i've had some bad bowel issues since dosing the 2c-i and so has volupta. it made me think of your comments pork that you think 2c-e may have given you light IBS or something. i'm going to watch it for a few more days and hopefully its just my terrible lifestyle this winter

 

those PEAs are a no-go for my tum-tum

even LSD can give me some knots these days. but nothing too noticeable

 

It's not just you, I've definitely had bowel issues with 2c-i too and they lasted a month. Not sure if it's related to a particular batch or this is what 2c-i does to alot of people in general.

 

I feel exhausted today after my 4-aco-dmt trip and just want to tune out and float. So I'm thinking of dosing mxe, is it safe to do so? I'm not up to speed on the scientific ndma antagonist stuff.

 

Yah that's safe

 

thx, bump for 25-30mg mxe

 

Spicey related her experiences well, very well. Maybe I should have expanded more.
I certainly didn't mean to suggest hiding from them, especially not with opiates. That's very much not what Felix is about with his research from what I have heard him say. Rather, by banishing fear I meant to relate the idea of examining the source of fears, try to get a fix on their origin and roots, look at them head on for what they are, the opposite of love, and relegate them to the trash heap.
Some psyches are great for this kind of work, 4 aces being one of them imo. I don't think it's possible (for me anyhow) to remove any and all traces of fear but it's a much smaller part of me as a result of looking at them from a psychedelic perspective. Kind of puts it in it's proper place so to speak.
S'all I meant by banishing.

 

Sproles is my nigggaaa! Who dat!

 

^ They're coming out here next weekend.

 

Love watchin The Saints whoop some ass. Black and Gold Superbowl # 2!!

 

You're about to see a completely different team next week. 49ers got the best defense in the NFC, they're gonna hit the Saints HARD!!!

Saints are pretty impressive though.

 

Im going to the BCS bowl tomorrow!

 

the steelers are the black and gold team... the saints are black and OLD GOLD..

 

Sorry to say, but the 49ers are in for it.

Who Dat.

Dat is all.

 

mxe scares me

 

In which way? Addiction or where it takes you? or both?