The Craziest Experience of my life

Ok, it is 4:37am and I work at 7:30am. I should be sleeping, but I am not because I cannot stop thinking about this experience I had last night. I frequently have anxiety issues (I have managed to keep the seriousness away from my family and loved ones), and last night I was having this panic attack as I was lying in bed. I was upset so I began to slow my breathing and try to control it.

That is when it happened. I could hear a droning sound coming from my breathing/heartbeat/concentration. My heart began to slow. But it wasn't really slowing down at all. I could feel time slowing down. I could feel each chamber of my hear pulsing and beating. My concept of time was changing. It felt as if there were seconds in between each of my heartbeats. Then I suppose i just focused on the droning sound and my mind floated inside this place I have never been before. I say "focused" but I feel like it was just the exact opposite at the same time, because I can recall not thinking anything. But here is the best part- I began to feel the most overwhelming orgasmic-like feeling in my entire body. It was a rush that came on like freight-train and covered my entire body. The most overwhelming physical experience I have felt.

The more I fell into this droning sound in my head the more intense this feeling became. I would say that the feeling lasted for roughly 8 seconds before I lost it. When I was coming out of this state, I could feel and hear my heartbeat go from somewhere like 15 bpm to 110 bbp- like I was coming back to reality. I was back in my my bed and my mind was in its regular state, but my heart was going crazier than it was from the anxiety attack. But my heart was beating so hard from the excitement of what just happened to me! So I tried to do it again, But this time I just scratched the surface and I was only there for many 3 seconds.

Then I got extremely nervous. I could feel my heart like I have never felt it in my life. I could still feel each chamber pulsing and beating and it didn't feel normal. I thought that I might have concentrated so hard that I was actually stopping my heart and that maybe it was offbeat now. So I called my girlfriend and told her how my heart felt very strange and that I was nervous and worried for myself. Then I remembered that I had this experience. I had completely forgotten that this had happened to me just minutes ago. So naturally, I began to tell my girlfriend all about the experience. She was scared for me, I was kind of scared to... But I was, and am still, very excited and extremely happy about what had happened. She eventually relaxes me and I am able to fall asleep. I slept for a few hours and woke up about an hour ago with the memory of what happened to me rushing through my head.

I cannot fall back asleep now. So, I begin to research what just happened to me. I couldn't find the results I wanted, because I really don't know how to search something like that on google. So, I found this site with the intention of having some of my questions answered.

I need to get back to that place inside my head. I need to know how to get there again. I have regularly used marijuana before and I have experimented with drugs like lsd and mushrooms. The feeling I had during the experience surpassed the feelings these drugs had ever given me. It surpassed the feeling of sex by a longshot. The craziest thing about this is that I didn't have to use drugs to get into the state I was in. I was just the highest I have ever been in my life, and it came from some sort of accidental time-altering, full mind/body orgasm. And I felt CLEAN!!! and renewed afterwards as well. This is borderline on of the most experiences of my entire life thus far, and I am 24. PLEASE!!!! If anyone knows what happened to me and can send me any information at all about it I would be most grateful. (ie: sites, books, personal experience)

I need to get back there.

With love and thanks!

 

so can you explain a little better about what happened? ......
i got from it that you fell into a drone sound.
It may be called de-personalization. it can be fun.
although i doubt it was depersonalization.
Sounds like your doing energy work within your body, thats what I think it is.
Was there any images that went with this sound?
you mention sound, feelings, emotion but no images?
...i would try again by going back to same place same time.
i like to imagine "healing going through my body" i dont have an image of it I just feel good and spread the feeling, then images, sounds come with it.
You should be able to duplicate it sooner or later. Try to talk with it. If it was as emotionally charged as you say it is you should be able to talk with it. ask it to come back, say your ready, know your ready and feel it start..

 

not to slight the experience but maybe you were witnessing the onset of sleep

 

I couldn't tell you exactly what it was, but it sounds to me like you should take up meditation. It sounds to me like a deeply personal experience whatever it was, even it perhaps it was simply the onset of sleep as Chodpa pointed out. Deep meditation can help you find a deep understanding of yourself and the world you live in, like nothing else, not even drugs. You may well find the answer you seek and answers to questions you didn't know you had.

Right, that has put me in the mood to roll a fat one. Gonna stick some Dark Side Of The Moon on and chill.

Good luck on your quest!

 

I'm convinced I once experienced true actual actual "no mind" for a brief few seconds @ my Grandma's house. It was so weird. As soon as I realized "wow you're not even thinking, or thinking about thinking!" things snapped back to normal. I had a major body high that lasted for a few minutes.

First hand experience of the belief if you remove the dialogue in the head that tries to maintain and fix the dialogue in the head, then there is truly no perceived problem with anything!

 

Sounds like you experienced a glimpse of Truth. I've had a few and they are very rare and extremely exciting. Keep meditating and seeking Truth, you will find it.

 

Meditation is the key for opening the doors of mysteries to your mind. Thanks for sharing your experience.