dude, you just started and youre already doing it daily, that is not a good sign. have you tried any other approaches to psychological problems, like counselling?
Drop a sheet of LSD? Ibogaine? There's things like this that can change your outlook without changing your chemical balances. Dope isn't EVEN a stop-gap, it's just a stupid-maker, a poor-maker, and a time-waster.
ive been to counselling before, but it was familly counselling cuz my mom is a bit of a nut job and thought our familly had probems... but even then i had a hard time telling the counsiller what my real feelings were. it seems like no matter how many time im reassured that it is completely confidential, i still dont want to talk about my deepest feelings.
and ive done acid before, im not looking for a trip, just an escape, some way to be fine with being alone all the time.
pain pills will only make you more lonely....you need other help..aka a doctors help. Man up and take life head on. Don't puss out and reach for meds to back down from the world
I'm not sure this is an option for you but I've heard of Suboxone being prescribed off the label as an anti-depressant. If you've been struggling a long time with addiction and depression and traditional anti-depressants haven't worked you might want to look into it.
I was talking to OP, because you appear to be a lost cause and from what I know of him, he's worth it. But you too. I don't care if you don't want a trip, I wouldn't expect you to. But a proper one would beat the stupid out of ya.
