Old Crone, I really need your help on this

Old Crone, you seem to be the one people go to, is there any insight you could give? Some spirit guides i can talk to?

This has been going on for a long time now, but my old boyfriend(who was formally possesed by a demon and retained some traits of it) did a vision thing on my current boyfriend. He said he has two things that might happen to him: he will die within a year or do something bad to me that will make me come to my former boyfriend and cry in his arms. But the problem is, most of my friends think my current boyfriend is an asshole. We went over and solved most if not all of the problems that made him come off as an asshole and my former boyfriend wants me to completly cut off most of my feelings(act like a friend instead of loving him) for my current boyfriend so I won't get "hurt" when one of the two things happen and he thinks I am in denial of all of this. I just don't want my boyfriend to die, I love him a lot and I had a horrble dream of him and I thought he was going to die so I cried in the dream and when I awoke, I cried for 15 minutes straight. Should I just consult spirit guides and see what they think I should do, or do you have any insight?

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Thank you so much for anything you can give.

 

Hi Space Girl

Back it seems a million years ago, I stood in the emergency room holding down a young man preventing him from further hurting himself, and began to sing "99 bottles of beer on the wall." Ok it was the longest song I knew, and this was going to be a long night.

Somebody had put something in his drink at a graduation party for kicks, and what they gave him reacted to his asthma medication. He was going crazy with fear. He would calm while I sang as we could not give him anything until we knew what was already in his system.

At about bottle 76, he looked at me with fear, and the tears of a child, and said the spiders were all over him. So I grabbed one, and popped it into my mouth, chewed, and sang 75 bottles of beer..., oops another one. For about an hour I sang about beer bottles, and gobbled imaginary spiders. "Cheap night for drinks, and supper" the Dr. smiled at me

The next day I checked in ICU to see how the young man was doing. He thanked me, and smiled as he said"I do not think I will ever drink again." I laughed until the tears came not sure is my singing, the imaginary spiders, or the truth of how close he came to dying were to him.

The reason for this shared experience is to tell you, as you give power to something! as you see things, and react to them may not always be the truth. You are letting others control, and manipulate your emotions, and choices because you are unwilling to step out side the ego of wanting to fit into things. You are reacting instead of acting with accountability, and responsability. No relationship is going to work from the place you are within yourself right now, because you are not sure who you are, and want to be.

Step back FIND YOUR OWN TRUTH. stand within your heart and choices. You are a warm wonderful person who just wants to love, and be loved. Yet you are struggling with your own sense of self, and allowing others to choose what you think.

So back up, and find your own heart, and peace. I see you moving on with your life in a very different direction than either one of these relationships. As you believe inside it will be for you. Everything else is manipulation, and hero, or victum roles. In these their are two side. The controler does not have power if the victum does not give it to them.

 

Thank you so much for showing me this, you are right about everything you said, I just never sat back and tried to see it that way before. I just feel lost all the time about everything, mostly because I don't feel like I belong here, that's why I let people decide for me but I don't have problems fitting in and I do well with others. I can try finding what I really am, but I have nothing to go by, at least I think I don't.

I will take into consideration what you said though and you are 100% right when you say "The controler does not have power if the victum does not give it to them."