Hey all So i just recently found out my neighbor sells lsd. He's gunna get me a few tabs that im gunna take with a mate. Ive never had a psychedelic experience so im just wondering whats going to happen. The only drug that has come close was dxm, i thought i was an animal and it was really exhilarating. there was no hallucinations though, and no euphoria. Now, i do have issues with mental illness.. My mum has what you could call a 'mental illness sandwich', and my dad was an alcoholic. When i was young i used to be filled with joy and curiosity about the world. I used to be so caring and compassionate, and just plain happy. Then the people in my life started to be absolute fuckwits to me. After that it was pretty much neglect and bullying. Then when people started to realise that i had a personality and i wasn't just the kid you could take out your fucking anger on, they went back to normal. But i didn't. I was very shy and distant, and immersed in tv and video games. Then they decided to poke at the fact that i was like that and complain that i wasn't like normal kids.. Anyway, i dont want to go on and on. All im gunna say is that right now, ive come a long way already. I know who i am as a person, and i love it. I know other people have insecurities about the way they look or about being gay and all that but i honestly wouldn't trade for anyone in the world. Just the problem is, im still depressed. I dont get enjoyment out of things and i can never concentrate and just all the usual shit.. I want to know what LSD will be like. Theres two experiences from my memory that i think sounds very much like it. 1. Not one memory, but pretty much my experience from my childhood. I had very bizarre experiences, like mad Dejavu, once i woke up and walked down to a near by school and siloughettes of hundreds of people were shadowing on the lights. I stood there and looked at it for at least an hour, and i really dont know if i was dreaming. It was such a realistic memory. I used to get excited at things to the point anyone would think "Who the fuck gave this kid MDMA?". I guess i just had way more emotions than everyone else. 2. An experience with alcohol and SSRI's. I went from blissful enlightenment where i realised that everything on earth is beautiful and life is so easy to a black hole where i felt so bad i could barely speak in the space of a few hours. So im going to start with a small dose. The dude im taking it with is probably the best person on the planet to trip with. He is the most chilled guy, and is always having fun. What do you think will happen? Will it be like one of those 2 experiences?
There's a very very strong chance you don't, that's where the acid comes in It won't be anything like any other experience you've had, but it should make you more aware of the subtle beauties that most people ignore on a day to day basis. http://www.erowid.org/experiences/subs/exp_LSD.shtml That link should give you the idea of what it's like, but at the same time give you the wrong idea. There are also a load of trip reports on this forum, just have a search
Unexpected everything. You can describe some parts, but through just my 3 experiences, I've seen it's different each time! Which makes it even more incredible, it's as if there's always something new to learn, there can be similarities tho, if you need to learn something that just didn't get through to you on a past trip, I bet another trip could hold a similarity.There are some constants tho, color will get really amazing, possibly will be the first thing you'll notice, that's always my first observation. Then all of your senses escalate, and your body gets this nice high, that sometimes gets overwhelming at this waves you have to ride as your before, at, and after the peak. The peak will be the hardest ride, and once you've reached that you are more comfortable and you start to learn. If you want some descriptions browse this forum for trip reports, I just wrote my 800ug trip report which you can easily find As for your mum be crazy and ur dad an alcoholic, it should be fine as long as neither of them have schizophrenia/multiple personality syndrome. But make sure your not depressed as you drop cause you can go to a dark place, but if your with a mate you should be cool, cause that sounds like it would be fun.
acid is unlike MDMA, or alcohol. To understand psychedelics you have to take them. Take the acid in a place where you will not be in danger, someplace that will not overstimulate you. And no matter what you may think, remember this feeling is temporary and do not go to the hospital. A tripping person and a hospital are the worst combo ever. They will hold you for hours and treat you like a criminal, because you are a drug addict in their eyes.
