Ever since I moved out of my parent's house and decided to live with my sister and her best friend, my parents act like I've done the worst mistake. They haven't told me but I get that feeling... their body language says it all from the way they look at my sister and me. And the way they hug me makes them the biggest hypocrites alive. The day I moved out (July 31), my dad gave me a speech about his life, his mistakes and what he has done. Of course, I wouldn't repeat his mistakes and ignore my future children the way he has ignored me for the past 20 years. Especially when I needed him to be a dad to me, he chose to threaten me. His speech was a way to get me to stay with them. Basically, his speech was one giant guilt trip and I know he wanted to say to give him and my mom a second chance. The only reason I moved out was because I wanted to be independent of myself, I wanted to go to school and they wouldn't let me. I wanted to get a job and they wouldn't let me because he provided enough (yeah, $10 to last me a week... I had to spend that money to buy tampons and make the rest last me and entire week.) Basically, I was trapped living with them. They didn't trust me, I had no privacy and I couldn't go out with friends either. It drove me insane! I call my mom daily so we can chat for at least an hour or so. She enjoys bragging about how much she and my younger sister spend when they go shopping or out to lunch. I'm just thinking, Oh really? Is this really her way of saying 'you're missing out now but that's what you get for moving out' but in a nice matter? Anyway, I think it's a little too late for both my parents to do anything about me now. They had their chances when I needed them the most but couldn't be bothered... Sometimes I get jealous when my friends have the sweetest parents and they mention that their mom or dad are their best friends. I wish I had that at some point. Do you guys think I made the right decision? Or should I fall for their trap and give them a second chance? Personally, I think I'm doing better. I feel free for once in my life; I'm not longer trapped in a tiny little box.
I believe that you've made the right decision Luna! It sounds like you're happier and have more freedom. As for your father? It sucks that he had to be that way to you. In my case, mine took off when my parents divorced. I was the ripe old age of 3. I've only seen him once since that time, which was purely by accident. He was only living two towns to the west then. No worries for me though. I'm long over his bullshit now.
Good for you, dear! If you feel as if you're doing better, more free and not trapped sounds as if you should try this for awhile. Making your own way is wonderful. It can be stressful, but you get to live and learn with new experiences. Good luck.
