I finally got in to see a Psychiatrist that I've know and worked with professionally for years. Told him about the symtoms I'd been having and he instantly confirms that the drug is rapidly getting a bad reputation for these ungodly side-effects. I was already on a taper-down doseage so he stopped it completely, With in just a few days that whole bit of madness has disappeared. That shit hit the market before enough research on potential side effects was completed. That period of time will (I hope) be the most frightening and fearful experience I'll ever have. Fuckin Depression really does just bite goat scroat.
sending good luck and good vibes your way. serious no-bullshit mental illness is no joke. so many medications get recalled. It's very scary. I'd steer clear of all that shit.
Dude a mental illness is like having a blind dog..Shit just isnt right...I had schizophrenia, chronic psychosis and was delusional for a while...it was disturbing LOL
Thanks folks, the last few weeks have been like a prolonged bad trip except there was no hope of it wearing off...it was just there. My God, I've always had compassion for people who suffer severe Mental Illness. Having toured that war zone while the battle was raging gives me even more empathy. Also I have deep gratitude for competent, compassionate care providers. What a living hell to be stuck in such a condition with no hope.
I wish you well bro.yeah i hear depression is the pits. some of the med they hand out don't help much either
I don't mess with anti-depressants and never will. I am naturally a depressed person and see that as part of who I am. I don't want drugs that make me feel everything is alright when it's not. Otherwise I'd have no push to confront what's causing me to feel that way in the first place. Life is full of endless obstacles and letdowns. I have come to accept this. People are way to reliant on pharmaceutical drugs these days. I prefer to just smoke pot and try to see the beauty amidst the despair. But that's just me. I am not trying to say people should follow in my footsteps. People need to make their own choices in life.
Ya know what you say here is pretty noble. The courage to face up to ones own demons and defeat them all the while letting the challenge shape you into a more autonomous individual. I too am a naturally depressed person who on occasion gets slammed so hard by this sorry-assed illness that at times the boundaries of my reality disolve. The comfort of death is a siren song so inviting it takes evey once of energy to resist it. It feels like being sunk in the murky depths of a quagmire where any effort to struggle free only embeds you deeper. A fragment of my conscious mind says "it will pass", You've been here before". You look for all the markers of joy and meaning in life but they blurred, intangible. You know that if the chemical soup of your mind was just a bit different you could latch on to some of your old standbys. Suck it up, get over it. take a hike smell the roses. And you also know that not one goddam thing you do will help. At that point, I am so grateful for the medication that will return me to my own self, to free me from the misery of that false pall of hell that has obscured my life. I am really happy for all of you naturally depressed people who can smoke a joint and sniff a rose and be all better. But I'm a helluva lot happier some pharma freak somewhere has figured out a way for me to reaquire the joy of life I usually have. Consider youself blessed to be able to manage that all on your own. You're a better man than I.
i found that both anti-depressants i've tried have made me feel worse - more depressed, more anxious, plus the nausea that comes with getting on and off of them... i won't try another one unless it gets bad enough that i absolutely have to. i've had much more success with therapy than i have had with medications, so i'll stick to that for now.
I think I've mentioned this on other threads, but it's probably worth saying again "Curing Depression Naturally with Chinese Medicine" by Bob Flaws has a lot of natural, self-help methods for depression. www.bluepoppy.com in the books section. I think that you can also look at chapters in google books (or get it from the library, maybe ILB) There's a lot of problems with medications. one is that they often don't work or have side effects. you can also become dependent on them. on the other hand, if you are suicidal, or other methods have not helped you, meds are probably a very good idea
assyrian root is good if you ever wanted to try the natural maoi route but med free is the best way to be. I've been on medications before (ssri). fuck that. anything that make me feel those side effects day after day can't be good. I never wanted to take medication in the first place but I have the "can't knock it till ya try it" attitude.
I guess I'm too dumb to be depressed. Or just lucky. These damn companies come out with drugs and seem ,in some cases ,not to even know what effect they'l have on people until some start killing themselves or show some symptoms of serious deseases of flip out over them. There are all kinds of lawsuits going on over them. Worst case was thalidiomide(sp?) when kids started being born without arms and legs. Bad shit. I hope you find the right remedy for yourself,brother.
I can't remember the exact amount of time because I read this a few months ago, but I read somewhere that the amount of time the FDA takes to approve a drug has went from something like 2 and a half years down to 18 months. So a lot of drugs are now getting early approval when in reality they should still be in clinical trials.
No doubt some of the psychotropic meds on the market are scary MoFo's. Here was my trade off. When the body chemestry goes south for what ever reason it needs something to anchor it till you can get your act back together. Under ordinary conditions no one would spray the interior of their home with high pressure water...unless the home was on fire. I've lived with and managed depression most of my life often without meds, sometimes with meds and cognitive therapy. The episode I just experienced needed intervention in a hurry. I'd love the luxury of throwing all those meds away but sometimes, for some of us it ain't a safe option. Also, meds get a major bad rap but I was real glad they had a Polio vaccine when it was epidemic in the the US. Same goes for how I feel about certain other vaccines or anti-venoms. If it were an ideal world we wouldn't need them but... One of the main reasons I go to the Amazon is to support and work with the Shamans. I've used lots of plant meds to great effect. I've also questioned the Shamans about mental illness treatments and most of them say for the severe cases western meds are more effective. Some of the coolests Shamans I've met down there are also trained in western meds. They love having the best of both worlds to treat people with. I hate having to admit I'm fucked up and need to put chemicals in my body to live ok. I am humble enough to say, Yeah, damn it. I do need them. My diabetic buddy has the same feelings about using meds but damn I'm glad he does. He's a good man and I'd hate to lose him.
