What OPIATES are you ON RIGHT NOW?? Part 5

About 300mg of DHC and about 250mg of vallies...feels warm.

 

100mg of Morphine+100mg Of Oxycodone So Far Today...

 

40Mg hydrocodone. I also took a couple flexeril but didnt check the date on em till after i took em. Prescribed in 1993. oops, uh i dont feel good

 

Prescribed 25 mcmg fentanyl patch with 15mg roxies 1 every four hours for breakthrough. I still got a week before going back to pm dr and my 15mg are gone. I dont feel any different though with just having the patch on and not taking the oxys. These patchs are great for pain control and I think they made it hard to abuse them. Oh, also got a fat oz of green in my stash too.

 

Nothing much today, just the withdrawal preventing dose of 2mg, but tomorrow I have big plans to 'splurge' since I am caught up with my school work for the next week and a half. So I plan on taking 4-5 mg.

 

Did a CWE on 100mg of hydrocodone so i probably got about 90-95mg out of it. Drank it down with some dr. Pepper and 100mg diphenhydramine. Awwww yeaahh

 

20 mg methadone to get me through tomorrows appointment at 930.....

 

I have had an enjoyable but very self-reflective day. I indeed took 4mg (more like 3.75 though) and got really placid feeling for about three hours. I got to silently sit and listen to music, etc. like I used to do.

Then (and now) I got into a strange state of examining my mind. I am in a transitional state from complete mental illness handicap to functionality and I guess I never really sat back and tried to piece it together. I have been so busy with school/ teaching and amped on Vyvanse that I haven't had any 'sensitive' moments of reflection.

I realized that I am still far from being "better." My symptoms of severe depression, anxiety, and psychosis are gone. My ADD symptoms are improving with the Vyvanse, but I still have a lot of trouble deep down on a personality level. I still feel like I need someone to talk to about my inner emotions, but I really don't have anyone. Since I am so busy I don't see my mom as much. My only real friend moved to Atlanta to find work and I (still, after 23 years of miserable loneliness) don't have a girlfriend to confide in. I feel like I need someone to talk to but I don't know how.

Since my Medicaid is only valid in Lancaster PA and now I am in Delaware, I can't see any local therapists. I won't drive two hours to see one in Lancaster either. And I don't want to pay for one with my precious little money from my stipend.

 

Just did some DECENT dope, a few hours ago. Not as good as what im used to, but havent done any in quite a while so it was delicious none the less, especially with 2 1/2 Xanax bars, and 4mg of klonopin.

Did some yay too but it wasnt very good, that dude aint gettin my business again..

 

since noon, im on 100mg oxy, and 40 mg opana......got my scripts refilled today, 130 20mg opana, and 300 15mg roxies.......feeling great, but it feels like its about midnight, eyes HEAVY, lol ready for a nap or bed, if i can make it there, lol

 

on that nizzle nod!

 

WOW.. Where do you guys pickup scripts like that ??

 

got lucky with a dr that is generous with the Rx pad when my surgeon referred me to a Pain management doctor.......

 

yep yep.....in about 30, imma take the knock out dose, Hot ass shower, then drag my face to bed, and hope i dont trip on it, because if i do, that is where i will spend the night, lol

 

32mg Of Dilaudid + 120mg Of Oxycodone!!! YaY Its The Weekend!!!

 

is there a certain way to go about getting a script? sick of paying 60 for an 80mg..

 

ahh just 5 vic 10s n some early homegrown bud, n the good ole budlight.
those that like vics ya think them pink ones with 3600 are the best even though the mg is the same with all of them.

 

it sucks wish i knew a better way myself. and i,ve had 2 knee surgerys, all i got was some vics.

 

to you guys taking these massive opiate doses clearly with an addiction, does it bother you that you are addicted to this stuff?

 

poly aren't you doing heroin?