crazy

for a while now i felt pretty low. i'd say like the past 6 months.
but lately i've been goin crazy. all these bad things keep running through my head til now I can't even think straight. I cant feel normal anymore let alone happy. i think about suicide alot.. at ordinary times, i could be driving home from school and just feel like running off the road or stuff like that. it's always there. i don't like being like this and no one understands. i can't tell anyone bc it's a touchy subject in my house. i don't want to feel this way but i can't do anything. i feel like i ran out of options.

what the problem is right now is that the only person who can calm me down when i'm losin it is my pap and he's in the hospital

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help

 

you may want to try visiting www.suicideforum.com or look up www.befrienders.org for a list of suicide hotlines

there's plenty to criticize about medications. for where you are at now though, meds sound like a good idea

you may want to check out the book "Curing Depression Naturally with Chinese Medicine" www.bluepoppy.com

regular, gentle aerobic exercise could help you.

figuring out what has made you feel this way in the first place and trying to fix it could help you

smoking a little herb now and then is not a big deal for healthy people, but you are likely getting high as a means of self-medicating. I think that there is a general consensus that smoking weed is bad for depression in the long run

hope that things get better soon!

 

I got a few problems myself.

If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to message me.

 

You certainly aren't alone with your thoughts, as lots of people sometimes feel the same way. It's sometimes very helpful to remember that whatever circumstances surround you - are only temporary, and things *will* change.

Care to share more?

 

I would find a way to receive help as it could be something as simple as a hormone imbalance. Also, how do you feel about reading? I remember one of my crazy bouts and I went to the library and searched through the self help section. You'd be surprised what you can find and learn to cope and change. Good luck, dear. You really are not alone with this.