In the last 4 years I've had 5 people I know take their own life. The most recent was last week as a fellow hippy friend hung himself from a bridge in Colorado while working at a festival. This has broken my heart in so many ways. I feel like suicide is becoming more and more common now a days and I just don't understand it. Sure their are things I would like to change about myself or maybe have a better job ect ect ect. But NOTHING in this world could cause me to take my own life. I'm bipolar with manic depression and I take pills to manage it. Without my friends and family I would be lost regaurdless of the meds. Im just having a very tough time excepting this. Have anyone of you gone through something similar? *LOVE*
My heart goes out to you. I'm very sorry. I've lost family members and acquaintances in the past few years. A couple due to hard drug use. It sucks. Just hang in there kid. Stay Brown, Rev J
sorry for your troubles pearl. r.i.p.ya,i can relate to that.i've lost a very large number of friends ta suicide.it sucks! you never get used ta somethin' like that.its just stuff that happens in life that your powerless over.my last friend that died that way jumped off a cliff.r.i.p.hang in there pearl. hugs :2thumbsup:
Thanks for the support guys! My friend who died was just that kind of guy you always wanted to be around he had an infectious smile always greeted you with a hug. You (if you knew him) would never think in a million billion years he would be that type of guy. Thats why it was such a shock when I found out. We grew up together went to church together everything. I guess even if you know a person well or all your life you really dont know them deep deep down. *LOVE*
I was going to commit suicide by self-stabbing, but 1. Fear of a possibly negative fate. 2. After the third time I lied to my best friend about bringing a knife, he drove me over to the police station, and they put me in a psych ward. I still feel like shit, but it's a long story. If I didn't have to live in an abusive household and continue growing older, things would be different. Just lying around waiting for the few friends I have to make some free time for me in their busy lives. And my best, closest friend moved to college. Not to mention all the letdowns I've experienced. I'm hoping to have a friend pay for some green soon, since that completely blocked my depression when I did it. Very spiritual, actually. Pure and peaceful. The trouble is finding a person. Also, I'm broke, don't drive and still can't get a job. But I guess it's possible things could work out, since my friend is willing. I still feel like suicide depends on the situation. Sorry about your loss, though, as it seems he had things going for him.
My brother listen to me no matter how bad you think things are no matter how hard times get (YOU ALWAYS HAVE FRIENDS!) If you ever want to talk I'm here. Things like cars and jobs and people come and go in our lives everyday those things are purely material possessions and can be achieved in time. Life is ever changing one minute your life is like a double rainbow then others its like this black cloud that follows you where ever you go. This is life and you will have your ups and downs for the rest of your life. Killing yourself solves nothing. I struggle with bipolar and depression and have been on meds of different kinds since 3rd grade. If it were not for my family and friends I would still be in platue mental health. I know what your going through believe me. I believe you have the power to over come anything in life if you have will power and determination and a good support system. All life is sacred and everyone in this world has something beautiful to contribute. Its not always easy finding your nest in the world but it will come because I believe everyone has a purpose God doesn't make mistakes you and everyone on earth were put here for a reason. I will keep you in my heart and pray for you. Like I said if you ever want to talk I'm here for you. There is so much life has to offer you that you have yet to experience keep that in mind and remember the ones who love you and except you for you and how sad they would be if you took yourself out of this world. Remember I'm always here. *LOVE*
in a suvey done here recently the suicide rate was a way higher in men than women.especially young men,in there early 20s.in general i think women talk to each other more about those things than men do.also lately one person will go an not long after a friend of theirs will follow.my friends son left 18months ago an then his best friend followed 3weeks ago.i think the way you describe your friend it was probably more of a sudden descision to go rather than planned.some people just decide ta go just like that an others plan it.my last friend that left had made a lot of planns ta leave.i knew for a few months.he used ta talk ta me about it,when he came round.i tryed ta help him ta stay.but he had his mind made up that he was goin' an no one could change it.the last time i saw his face,i got a bad feelin'.i was just walkin, away after we were chattin' on the street,an i dont normally look back.but that particular day i did for some reason, an he did too at the very same time.he looked happier than i'd ever seen him.just so at peace in his expression.i just knew deep down that that was the last time i'd ever see him alive again.an it was.3days later,his body was found at the end of a cliff.so pearl even if you had know,your friend may have left anyway.an he'll always be your friend still in spirit,cos souls never die.ya can't keep a soul in a box.so wherever he is,take comfort in knowing he's free! hugsan one things for sure he'd want you to go on and be happy:2thumbsup:
sorry that so many folks here have had these negative experiences Pearl, at least your friends that died had someone like you in their lives that cared about them www.suicideforum.com is a good place for more discussion about suicide do you have friends in common that you could talk to about this? I bet there are friends and family that are also having a hard time dealing with this
I know the feeling Pearl, lost my girlfriend of a year to suicide.. no idea why. But you know what I like to think? They're probably rockin' it in some absolutely magical place right now, full of amazement and wonder, and thats fine by me. Life goes on, even after death. So be happy, love life, and all its wonders! Peace
I've actually attempted, not proud would never do it again but its definitely a interesting experience to be near death.
my prayers are with you and your friends...god bless. i've been suicidal, and it's very scary. you feel like youre desintigrating, hopeless and completely alone.
Pearl I'm sorry for the pain you have, it feels so helpless and empty when someone leaves this way. Perhaps they did have great pain themselves but there are many open hands and hearts that will reach out for people who are hurting. I'm dealling with the aftermath of a suicide right now. To be honest I'm really angry at the guy. He caused so much horrible pain in the lives of so many other people he left behind.. A group of friends are keeping a steady watch going on for his Dad. The sons death has broken the man. I knew them both and knew the boy had some pain but there were hands out to him everywhere. Now his Dads hands are empty, his heart is empty. We're all scared for him. The guy who died was messed up with Meth but we thought he had gotten free of it. He looked and sounded OK. He said he was OK. Goddam it's nut's! It's crazy and cruel to those left behind. His sister is wrecked over this too but at least she has her beautiful pup kids to love. The kids know their uncle died but they're young and resiliant, they'll be OK. Someone who is considering suicide should also factor in the wreckage they will cause. Some people get the pity line going that no one will care if they die....hummm I wonder. If I ever decide I have no choice left but to die I will insure that my death will not appear as suicide. There still may be pain but not the pain that suicide causes. Mea Culpa...sorry for the ramble. Pearl I hope your pain eases away so you can feel good again...sorry for your loss
Theres the pain of the after effects of suicide and then there is the pain of living as a suicidal person. Both conflicting.
Had I acted on my serious and painful suicidal plans as a young gay man when I felt there was no hope or value to life I would have missed a rich and textured life both full of joy and a good mix of pain. It was tough back then in a rural conservative place, so lonely, so empty. Dear God how I wanted someone to hold and love like everybody else. Many times I set up my plans and waited for hours thinking about the various sides. In the end I could not stand the thought of what my death would do to my family. They had no idea I was gay...you didn't come out back then. So despite the pain and tears I endured secretly, the decsion to live was right for all. I can agree that for some the need to get out of pain outweighs all else but for myself I'm glad I didn't act on my feelings.
I'm sorry to hear that.. It does seem more common and common and when people that want to commit suicide when they let it out to get help people don't take it serious saying they just want attention. Its really quite sad.. I've had friends that have commited suicide and aquaintences as well. My best friend's brother in law killed himself and there were 3 following him because he killed himself.. Really sad. I feel for you just hang in there and i'm sorry about the loss. It is a very hard thing to deal with.
Sounds like you need to hang out with a happier crowd. If you surround yourself with miserable people you will always be miserable
