Ok, so in my high school years I always found certain actresses good looking, I would watch their movies just to see them in it, and I was scared of the thought that I might be a lesbian because I would try and find guy actors that were attractive and really cant. I am a tomboy and when I was younger women kissing and boobs gave me a tingly feeling, the other day I said to my mom I m=think Im a lesbian and she was accepting of it because I told her of all the feelings I got for some women and all, the thing is I felt good when I said it like I felt like I didnt need to care what people think anymore, and now Im getting thoughts that Im really straight and its jsut so confusing. -I would obsess over pretty actresses, watch their movies, just to see them I couldnt really find an attractive guy like that -I had a gym teacher my junior year who I would go out of my way to talk to because I really liked her emotionally -I have ocd but my thoughts always obsessed about being gay, and I was so scared but I finally admitted I might be a lesbian and Im getting reverse thoughts about Im straight now -I can picture myself kissing a women and I kinda like it, I can do the same for a guy but I dont think I would like it as much Did any lesbians try to find guys attractive but only could find a select few, and when they thought women were pretty try to make up excuses like oh i just wanna be pretty like them and stuff, like i just want to know what you went through when you were younger
Yep! deffinitely did that! ^ You know you're practicaly describing the way i've felt exactaly!! :O I used to/still do watch stuff just to see the actresses. I used to try and find guys attractive and only found a few. And unbelievably I have a (as my mother says) 'mild' case of OCD! So yeah, I totally know where you're coming from. I only really came to terms with it this year though. I 'came out' only about 2 weeks ago and I only turned 18 in June this year; so I can't really say it all happened when I was younger, but I do understand and I think I've come to feel fairly happy with it all my self. But everyone else-particularly my mother aren't taking it so well... Most of the people I know are fairly strictly christian so i've been told by my mother things like "You are being possesed by a 'gay demon'" and "Homosexuality is a disease and this is an attack from the devil" So I'm having a bit of a hard time from Mum. The rest of my family that knows have said things like "She doesn't get out enough" and you know "It's a phase" <That old one! *rolls eyes* and "she's too young to know what she is" Having a hard time living with my parents at the moment! I also have had confusing thoughts about possibly being straight after all. When I actually told everyone I think I said : "Hang on, now I've said it out loud to someone i'm not so sure anymore" which really didn't help! lol Anywayz I hope that helps; I find it helps to know someone going through the same thing. Maree
I feel exactly the same, like when I told some close friends I got that thought about being straight, but my parents told me they love me no matter what and they want me to be happy, Im 18 my birthday was in june and I "came out" like 3 or 4 days ago, but my parents and family said they always had a feeling and talked about it me possibly being a lesbian
