I have OCD, however it always was about obsessive thoughts about being a Lesbian. The reason why is because I had an attraction to females, but i believe I found excuses for myself like "oh I feel that way because I want to be pretty like them" or "oh it doesn't make you a Lesbian if you physically are attracted to them" but I think I was in denial about being a Lesbian and try to find so many excuses. I rarely found guys attractive and was scared to have sex with one, however with woman I could easily say when one was physically attractive, and I would get emotionally attracted to them as well. Like with actresses I would have some I would obsess about and watch their movies just to see them in it because I would feel good when I saw them, I wasnt like that with guys...the last time I remember liking a guy was 4th grade. I tried to look at pictures of guys and force myself to think they were attractive and I really couldnt, but when I would get these feelings towards women I was so scared and tried to block out my thoughts and all... I was and still am I tomboy, I use to skateboard, play soccer, I video game, like I like being a girl its just now I feel like Im maturing and have the attitude where I dont care what people think about me anymore. If Im a lesbian Im a Lesbian, and I was scared of the thought but now Im not because I believe I have learned to accept it. I still need to experiment but i came out to my mom and was like I think Im a Lesbian and she said she had a feeling she always knew and my father said it was no shocker, Im ok with it I really am I feel happier I said it to them to be honest, because I should not have to hide how I feel. I have a manger at work I think she is very good looking, yeah I can picture myself kissing her and I like it, I dont picture myself like that with a guy, well I can but I dont like it as much really, and its like I feel like I never really have and just tried to hard to like guys, and disprove my true feelings for women. My junior year of high school I had a gym teacher and I liked her a lot something about her, I would go out of my way to talk to her, I would just like seeing her, but when I was scared of those feelings I would try to avoid her, thinking back to it I shouldnt have avoided her and just accepted those feelings, and not be scared. I liked her a lot, and I was just emotionally attracted to her. Do you get what I mean? I would never ever pursue her of course she was a teacher and its highly inappropriate but being around her gave me butterflies sort of and I tried to impress her, I would make excuses saying I liked her as a role model but thinking back I think it was more then that... Did anyone ever feel like this? Do you think Im a Lesbian, I believe Im at least Bisexual but more towards women, I just feel happier that I have accepted my feelings....please tell me what you think
I've always found it puzzling why so many gay people, either male or female have some kind of anxiety thing going on, whether it be OCD, Hyperactivity, anxiety or bullimia Not that anyone seems to give a crap enough to do enough studies, but what is that about?
It obviously made u feel better the moment u labelled yourself a lesbian, so i say go for it. Having said that, i can relate to a few things u said and i know for sure that i'm not a lesbian. Things i can relate to : - when i was a teen, i very rarely found guys attractive. i remember that some of my girl friends said that it was extremely weird (looking back, they were just dumb teens). and like everyone i was nervous before having sex with a guy for the first time. - i was attracted to girls, i flirted with them. i had a girlfriend when i was 18ish, i was crazy in love with her. Things that are different from u : - i'm a girly girl, i always wear very feminine clothes and do girls stuff. - ive had boyfriends, i love men, they turn me on more than women do in general. Now the fact that i once had feelings for girls, slept with them and whatnot, raises questions but im convinced it doesn't make me a lesbian. i guess it makes me "bi-curious". I like a man's touch <3
doesn't it make you bi-sexual because you already dated and slept with one bi-curious is when you think about doing it , or kiss a girl...
To the OP your a lesbian, and when I was younger I definitely had crushes on my teacher who is a woman, so it's normal.
like i said, the question is raised. But i feel like i've figured out that i prefer men now, so i dont know.
