what do you think, is this gay?

I am a straight man and have never been interested in men, i've always had a lot of luck with beautiful women, and the thought of a man never crossed my mind.
i have a friend, also straight and married, and, with my girlfriend at the time, the 4 of us sometimes would play some erotic games, but NEVER with any interaction between the two men. Clearly this is somebody i was comfortable with given the games with the wife and gf.
He got divorced, and later i broke up with my gf.
one night this guy and i were at my house by ourselves, and got really drunk and fucked up, and he suggested we should fool around, which took me completely by surprise, but i was really wasted, and went along with it. we took our clothes off, and next thing i know, i am sucking his cock! and though it wasn't my idea, i must say i didn't dislike it at the time, being drunk played a big part, and i even told him since i was experimenting, that he could come in my mouth, but he did not want to.
i guess i was excited by the fact that his cock was huge, and i had never held another cock in my hand, let alone my mouth! so i sucked him off for a while, and he loved it, but didn't come in my mouth, he played with my dick, and that was about it.
when we sobered up we were both so embarassed by what had happened that we told each other we had crossed a line, and we were never able to see each other again because we were i guess both embarassed. i know we shouldn't have, but that's the way it was.
the following days i felt really ashamed about what had happened, then the thing kinda faded away.
years after, i have not seen my friend again, and have never been attracted to any other men (infact, i wasn't really attracted to him either, except for his big dick), i would never do this again cause i am not interested, except maybe if it were to happen with him, which it won't. i guess the fact that we are both completely straight is a factor.
however, when i think about that night now, i find it kind of exciting, and occasionally i watch some gay porn and am reminded.
i have no interest in men, i don't think that one experience makes gay or bi, but wanted to know your opinion!

 

curious and drunk is all... shame you lost a friend because of it though.

 

I dont think so, because your not attracted to men

 

Seem like a straight guy to me. Why? Do you need other straight guys approval to assure yourself about something that is totally about you? You seem pretty sure your straight. If you never think about it though, and this is a couple years after the fact, why are you posting it on a forum? Got something on your mind? Do not let it worry you, and do not think you need to classify yourself as something, just be.

 

think you're just bi like most people but most won't admit it; just need to be drunk for it to come out.

hey, so what, you enjoyed the sensatrion from your own words - esp his big cock - just not attracted to him. so what if it was a guy that you were attracted to - maybe a bit feminine?

Simon:sunny:

 

see this is what i really find disgusting about our civilization as a whole--that we have somehow created this cultural room where if two guys throw their clothes off and have a little innocent drunk fun together, the thought that enters their head the next day is 'shame'. shame should never even be a consideration. maybe reluctance, maybe being a bit distant because of shared level of intimacy, but shame shouldn't enter into it at all. what's shameful about it?--absolutely nothing. and i think the fact that people feel ashamed of doing something that physically felt good and didn't harm anybody is so sad.

 

Yeah, cos gay guys have so much trouble getting attention from girls

 

Dude,

One time fling with your str8 mate does not make you bi or gay. You need to establish a pattern of behavior in order to be seen as bi or gay by other people. That was the easy part.

The more difficult part is that you still remember this, think about it, and even post here about it. This indicates that the matter is not over for you by any stretch of imagination.

I would leave the bygones be bygones. I would also be honest with myself and recognize that the whole affair was somehow satisfying, and that I would enjoy repeating the experience.

I would also chuck the whole labeling issue overboard ASAP. You want to enjoy your life. Leave the worries about the labels, i.e. other people's opinions about it and go for what your guts tell you to do...

KD

 

Yes, well, it's not like I think about it all the time but I have never told a soul about it and thought I'd tell the story here and hear some opinions... not a big deal at all...

 

Congratulations, you've just discovered that it feels good no matter who diddles your fiddle.

 

as soon a cock touches your mouth it is automatically gay


so yes...what you did was gay

 

It's a known fact that most men have a secret sexual dream about at least one other man in their lifetime. To act on something of such or even just to act on it drunk doesn't make you gay or bi. Personally I find pussies revolting but I still wouldn't take a gay man over my wife anyday. So don't worry about it things happen ya know

 

i'm not worried about it, i guess it was whatever it was, and of course yes, the act in itself is gay... no doubt. i stressed about it at the time, but not anymore, now i actually find it kinda sexy actually although i have no interest in repeating it. hard to explain really.

 

Totally agreed!

 

OP, it sounds to me like you have a cock fetish. Nothing necessarily gay/bi about it, but it exists and you should nurture it. Have fun. Play with dicks. Explore your sexuality.

 

while you probably have a point there, I would have no idea how to go about that and i think there would be too many conditions that would need to be met for me to be comfortable, which makes this irrealistic...

 

qft.

 

I completely agree. Its a real shame that you lost a good friendship over something that you both enjoyed. I don't know all the details of the situation, but if it were me, I'd be trying to reconnect with my friend.

 

I've messed around with a girl and a gay guy...I'm not attracted to men nor have I ever gone as far as that...but the girl I was fucking in front of him made a good point...

She tried to get me to mess around with the guy but I'm not attracted to men...Just doesn't even turn me on...

But she said..."If you close your eyes, the brain can't tell if it's a girl or a guy touching you..."

She has a good point...but still just because it happened and doesn't make you a bad person...It just means you were willing to explore something new and then be given a choice on whether you liked it or not...

In this case, I think you just wanted to try it...No harm, No foul...