Hi there. As i am writing this i just had this dream. I was a patient in a hospital. I att some point commited suicide, only to possess the personel and kill other people. Reapetedly. At some point i was found out but before escaping by floating in the air as a spirit, i went to some room, wich looked like a morgue and a bathroom fused togheter, and there i saw something wich i knew i did but could not remember. On an autopsy table was a woman crawling down from it, looking sad, trying to reach my masterpiece. A man, sitting on a toilet, blood and worms all around the floor, no face, as everything was taken out of the skull (like that dude in ''house on the haunted hill''), every innards removed and the worst, he was still alive and breathing heavily. It was disturbing real time!
My impression of this is that you have some kind of identity crisis where you attempt to "kill" your identity that you are not satisfied with and attempt to build some others to replace it. The autopsy table would signify that you examine yourself carefully and the toilet is a device to get rid of things you don't want or need (when quitting smoking it is common to dream about having a public BM). Those "selfmade" personalities are incomplete and flawed and will quickly decompose. Maybe you feel that you often have to put a "front" personality up to people depending on who you are around. Anyway, how are things going, did you find a psychiatrist, shaman or just someone irl to get a third and fourth opinion about the stuff you posted earlier. I am as you know just some random dude from the internet, so don't give my interpretations to much credit.
Hi. It is true that i put a front when i'm around different people. For example i will make myself look cheerfull around new people that i meet, even if i'm not that way naturally. I didn't find a psychiatrist, shaman or anyone else to get new point of views. As for your interpretations, i do give them credits since up to now they hold truth and are realistic. Thanks again for sharing your thoughts. Have a nice day.
