This is my gf's trip report from when we tried 5-meo-dmt for the first time. It was her first intense psychedelic experience.... Life Altering- Experience July 5th 2011 Yesterday I had a life altering experience. Some would call this an out of body spiritual journey. I would refer to it as a realization of truth- realizing the limitless possibilities inside my own mind, being without a body and vibrating at such a high frequency that traveled into the real dimension. The first thing I saw was the brightest white light I’ve ever experienced. It was everywhere- as if there was nothing but light. Scattered across the expanse of white light were thin colored shapes like looking at a kaleidoscope. The shapes were out in front of me like they were floating in the air. Then I remember feeling the sensation of bliss in my heart charka. The next thing that happened is very hard to explain- for there are no words that I currently know that can explain the feeling I had. I was absorbed by such a high frequency of “truth” that I exploded into a million tiny particles of energy- shattered into the colors I was looking at and became a wave of energy. Normally I’d say I was connected to everything in the Universe(s) when I meditate. This was SO far beyond that concept- I “was” everything it wasn’t’ a feeling of connected-ness. I was connected-ness. I was simply a wave of pure energy = the only wave of energy in existence flying or rather vibrating through everything. It sounds crazy- but there really is no way I can describe it. Someone was communicating with me- I was also trying to talk to myself and tell myself to let go. When I would come out for a few seconds I’d try to talk myself into letting go again. I remember telling myself, or may have been the person communicating with me saying- this is what is really is. You are here- you are always here, this is it. I went back into a bad experience- so much so that I could actually feel, smell, and see the entire experience. I got up and walked into the bathroom- felt like I was going to puke and when I opened the door I was back in the house I was when the bad experience happened. I was so sick then that I was convinced that if I didn’t get in the tub I was going to die. Sweating like crazy. I remember thinking that it wasn’t real and being aggravated that I even went to that thought. Brandon told me it wasn’t real- and talked me into getting in front of the AC. Walking around looking at the room and seeing Brandon everything was fluid- he was fluid moving across the room. When I starting coming back to my body- I remember talking to him. Before he starting talking I felt what he was saying- and connected to his words. Although I don’t remember them exactly now. I wanted to express to him that inside the seconds before he starting talking I had a “Shift” a defining moment in my consciousness. The message and shift that took place for me- was “it wasn’t a disappointment that I went back to the bad experience. Going to the bad experience was the message. It proved to me- that my thoughts are so powerful- so far reaching- so magnificent that I could think about one bad experience that happened 11 years ago and completely relive it; I could feel it in every emotion in my being- just from focusing on it for a couple seconds. That 11 year old experience was still right there inside my mind- living, breathing and strong enough to completely take over my existence if I allowed it to. If that is the case- then my thoughts and emotions attached to my thoughts are more powerful that anything I could have ever imagined prior to this experience. When I first let go and saw the light- I felt something so pure and beautiful like more love than I’ve ever felt at one given time. I opened my eyes not long after- because I needed Brandon. Wanted to know he was still there. Everything that led up to the experience was divinely guided. The frog, the fact we couldn’t find hotel, the crystal, the doves. I also remember when I first walked outside there were people on the balcony. I remember thinking they were there- but it felt different. Not like Brandon and I were the only 2 people in existence. But that it didn’t matter that people were there. My vibrations were so high it took me a while to feel like I had a body again- or to feel like I was back inside reality. When I close my eyes I can still see the light- the colors are faint now in my memory. I can still feel in my heart charka the vibrations I experience and the love there. The importance of knowing how powerful our thoughts really are.
