I've never really had a good physical relationship with a woman, but I've watched about a billion porn movies. I think there's a serious problem with that, I think people like me invariably end up channeling that feeling of disapointment into other areas, usually just every day crabbiness, but also serious psychopathic hatred. I'm unemployed and live with my widowed mom, and to me it feels especially obnoxious when other people flout their sexuality in public, but that's just because I'm not getting any, right? There's a tinge of awkwardness as I go on living a healthy lifestyle as my sexually active acquaintances tend to go on drinking and doing drugs along with their sexual activity. My blueballs are envious but my heart and mind aren't. I think internet porn is a sign of the end 9f the world.
Um, I think that's supposed to happen sometime in October. God gave us a reprieve until then because He couldn't find enough good Christians earlier this year to beam up to heaven. I think the body of your post speaks volumes if you would just read it back to yourself. For instance you say you've "never really had a good physical relationship with a woman," but you've watched about a billion porn movies. Could one be the result of the other? You're unemployed and living with mom, but could that be because of "every day crabbiness, ... also serious psychopathic hatred"? You talk about "living a healthy lifestyle" but yours is far from healthy, my friend, especially the watching of so much smut. Don't wait for Jesus to pull you up, pull yourself up.
Volunteer for something, anything! Get yourself out of the fucking house and away from the damn computer screen.
I see people going out and mindlessly drinking, doing drugs and fucking each other as just as much a sign of the "end of the world" as people using the internet for stuff like porn. Internet, PC and console gaming just as much. People feeling the need to supe-up shitty little cars, or any car for that matter, with noisy exhausts, neon lights on the underside and a sound system that is hazardous to the health of the user just as much. Mindless consumption of animal and oil products just as much. The worship of human beings who contribute nothing to the wellness of the human race but look good on film just as much. I could go on but my point is really that internet porn is not the only factor here. Maybe it is the end for your world right now, maybe the world for many but not the end for all. There are many other bad things playing a part in this. It all comes back to a lack of real education, really.
Gelrex, I think you are ripe for a therapist if anyone ever was. One of the signs I see of the end of the world is that the sun is shining every day. It can only contain so much gas you know, and eventually it will burn out. If you have a regular job and keep yourself reasonably clean and presentable then the only thing you need in order to get a girl is the knowledge of how to treat her the way women like to be treated. If you are depressed a lot, but have occasional bouts of euphoria, you might be bipolar and should get that checked out. I know that from personal experience.
