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WELL i feel i need to comment becaue the letter from brandiss was pretty impressive. You know he could of easily sent this mail privately but instead he decided to make a public announcement in the forum which takes alot of guts to say hey i was angry and may not of thought clearly before i wrote.
For me that has happened many times and how i handled it is i would write a hate letter and vent all my fustrations and by the time i finished it i could delete it and think more clearly
to wrote a more thoughtful letter instead. Well i think brandiss put out a olive branch and admited his shortcoming. What i saw in return is more anger and digs at him trying to hurt him. You know Drew no one can hurt you only you can hurt yourself and whatever he did to you was let to happen by you.
You know when someone hurts me if they gave me a letter like that out in public i would forgive him yes i may be weary and make him earn my trust again but i would give him the chance. I think you all have a lot of growing to do and learning what is trully important out there. Well good luck all of you.
JEFF

 

Hi everyone,

thanks Jeff, (Im a she by the way) Drew is just hurting right now, and its going to take some time to heal and grow through this. I understand.

Erin, I just got your message, log onto msn messenger so we can chat.

Drew, Im sorry that you are still feeling so angry. I know how hard it is to let go sometimes though, and its okay. I thought I'd let you know where Im at anyways, You flying to BC was a long time ago Drew, and it was something we had already worked through. I wasnt well, but it was no excuse. I admit that through my addictions I have fallen into some pretty self centred behaviours, and even now, when I stop looking openly at myself I fall back in, but Im working very hard to let my walls down and to change. Thats alot of the reason I am back in Hamilton, I chose to be here because it is where I am most out of my comfort zone, and I know its where the most work is to be done.

Im sorry that you feel like I tried to steal your family, I dont think I have that much power drew, Im just me. I remember telling everyone how you deserved a second chance, and I remember being the only one who was going to stand by your side when everyone wanted to leave the bus. I kept believing in you, and even though I needed to have some space from you, and even after this post I still believe in you. I remember all the bad, immature drama you and I have shared but I also remember all the real moments, and honest vulnerable moments we have shared as well, and that out weighs everything to me. Seeing the strength we have shared helps me let go of all the other crap.

Anyhow, Im going to go to bed, I hope you at least think about things a little more open on your way home, and hopefully we can sit down and talk the way I know we can

Lots of love y'all

 

Hi Drew, I've decided I was going too far with these posts. I dont want to put myself out there again, you know who I am and where I am at if you decide to approach me. It was worth a try to try and make amens with you, and if you do not accept thats okay, I respect your decision. I wish you a safe journey home, and to the new owners of the highway child, we are all still very much there in spirit, a few fall outs did happen on the bus, but alot of love, growth and magic occured as well. I wish you all an incredible journey!


Erin, Eclipse, Jason, Kev, Drew, new highwaychildren and anyone interested who reads this post, If your interested in trip pics from the first few cycles of bus family feel free to check out my sit, http://brandillis.tripod.com and look under gypsy life. I will be posting New Orleans, Tennessee Mississippsi....ect soon, just need to get to a scanner.
Lots of love and light

 

well brandiss sorry did not know you where a girl WOw. Well you know sometimes you just need to move on. sledomly do growing people keep the same friends through the years for we take different paths or we just are not good for each other. IN you and rews case maybe you are just growing up and seeing your faults and you are trying to make ammends. But the fact is the whole kaotic time was caused by many things and it sounds like you reacted badly instead of just walking away and going well lesson learned. Well your PUBLIC apology is more then most would do and you did as much as you really can do.
But no human diserves to be begg forgiveness too as i all sounded you and the others had reasons for your stress and anger you just vented them the wrong way. If Drew does not want to accept it and understand that he did have a share in what caused it then oh well there will be lots of people through time that will make you happy and hurt you it is life. So i hope you find happiness wherever you are. For me i have to admit i find few i really want to get to know and when i do decide to give it a try i alot of the time wish i didn't. The old bumber sticker fits me like a glove and it says the more i know people the more i love my dogs. Good Luck

 

Road Gypsy, Thank you for your comments! For some one with such wise words and insight throughout this thread I find it hard to believe that you regret getting close to most people. Just keep teaching what you know and have patience, we have to help eachother grow!!!!! .
To whoever started hip forums, what a great place this is, thank you. Im going to go look around some more. Good night everyone.

 

yeah there are a lot of kind words Im hearing...
i thought about this post in the miles up to sanfransico
dude Im right on hait and ashbury right now...I was sitting under the janice tree a few minutes ago in goldon gate park....man Its beautifull here

anyway dipping in the drama for a moment (I really dont like this)
brandi i wish I could have looked at you like I did before You have many great qualities thats why I thought so highly of you, the fact that you did what you did when you did thats what crossed me
I told you the highway is sacred to me its what I am as corney as that is the journey is spiritual I needed to experioemce everything that I experienced , still I never want anything to do with you again, you betrayed me,
I wish I could be ignorant of your dark side I wish I coul only see what I see faced value
I can never trust you again , I may be able to speak to, I may be able to look at you without gritting my teeth.
you were too special to me as a friend ...I would have done anything for you, at this point in my life I dont ever want to think of you. I dont want you around my family though lindsay is her own person and choses what she will I would rather not know you exist.

Im sorry I feel that way but Im shaking right now writting this....for weeks after I would hurt in side thinking of what happened, I was so angry later....It was destroyng me I had to remove you from my mind, I smudged I prayed I painted over your bunk and everything that reminded me of you I got rid of.....
Im still growing myself
I cant grow with anger
thinking of you makes me hurt inside I dont like the feeling of hate......
right now ill focus on the universe it happened for a reason, what lesson ?? maybe Im still learning but until I do Im learning away from any thought of you
please dont contact me , please dont talk to me when I get home, just stay away from me.......
I hope you grow well I hope you learn what you need to learn, I have faith in you thats why I was your friend...I hold that word friend sacred..I meet lots of people I have few people who are as close to me that I can call a friend....
thats why I feel as I do my friend betrayedd me
read dante's devine comedy what level of hell is reserved for those who betray..
thta was mean what I just wrote but I think I had to express the severity of that.

may the universe bless your path.
enblighten your soul
open your eyes and keep you dear

thats how I feel. please respect that thats where Im at right now.

ok again guys san fransisco is badass!!! next on the list berkley.


road gypsy.
you are a wise cat.
one day we'll meet and sit down and talk of the road
safe journey
happy highway
drew

 

damn you brandi....\
Im on mushrooms now,,,,,the first time since 9-11
a;; I think about is the last post I wrote....Yeah damn right Im angry ..But I dont hate you I love you sister....;.....


its tgoing to take some time ...
but theres love

I am way to trippy to write
good vibes....
still give me some space for a while...........
I know Im not ready to deal with you...but I will
love and bitterness
hahahaha im writting how I think....

damn this dude walked up gave us all chocolate mush .....
well Im sure you know where Im at......

dont fret just give me some time then Ill approach you
\drew


lindsay....oh so much love

 

riiiiight well I was in a strange place last night....had a lot of fun met some of the coolest people kicking around haight and ashbury...man we had about 20 cats in the bus jamming out..

we met up with this dude we had on the bus months ago from the rainbow, last time we has seen him was in montreal....
small world...
peace

 

Who Did you have on the bus from rainbow???? Thanks for the post Drew, even if you were messed up when you wrote it, it means alot......Lots of love and light.

 

remember the dude with the long red hair who made those shell neckleses the dude who would sell them for a grand a peace...yeah him..
peace

 

Hey what did you mean you have four days to decide when you replied about taos NM if you would call me i will send you my # in your eamil if you could reply by phone because im gonna be on the road the next couple of days and wont be able to check on here thanks for you time.
Peace and Love JimJam

 

Hey hope everyone reading this is doing well, I've got a place in knoxville now, those of you on the bus know it, the playboy mansion, all the frat guys moved out. There are some kick ass shows around here, I was in Kentucky last week then headed down to Ashville NC and saw Leftover Salmon with Moonshine still, going to Unphrey's Mcgee tonight. IF ANYONE IS GOING TOWARDS COLORADO AT THE END OF DECEMBER PLEASE LET ME KNOW, leftoversalmon's last shows are going to be in Boulder. Drew I payed off all that money so its over with, consider it done, Im not giving it another thought. But I have been thinking alot about the girl we said we would mail a necklace too, remember the little teenie bopper girl at the christian concert thing in the parking lot, she payed us for a shell necklace, I dont even remember where that was, maybe in tennessee, anyways whatever I was just wondering if anyone had gotten around to sending her one, if you dont want to then you can send me her address (assuming you still have it) and I'll take care of it. Glad everything is going well on the bus. Come spring Im heading west so Im making al list of the cool shit you post and hopefully I'll be able to check out alot of it. Brandi hope everything is going well with you and everyone else in Hamilton, I guess james is back in BC, say hi to everyone for me. I miss everyone there alot, which is a big thing comming from me. anyways, take care.
Namaste
-Eclipse

 

lucky ass thats a kick ass pad man , say hi to jason for me.
yeah thegirlwhowanted a shellneckless, funny you mentioned that I havebeen picking upshells from everywhere ,lI have three necklasses set aside for her Im planning on sending her a picture of where I have been picking up the shells.

I was at the green tortois last night ...thesecats have been doing tours for two decades,,....
it wasreally coolfor me to be able to hang out with them.
we ran into robin williams at the rocking java....he made ajoke about the bus bieng from canada..hahah sold him a necklass
peace

 

humbolts the shisnisit
lets see, we have a crap load of folk on the bus now, more so than ever...with the exception of the return from the rainbow gathering.
tim the dude who was supposed to be taking over as captain, was voted off last night (superiority complex)

so the bus is still getting kicked down, the folk on the bus or rather the elders (those who have been on for so many miles) will get there names on the registration when Im gone.

we need a driver!!!!
15 cats and no drivers liscence but me....
oh yeah the gypsy tribe has a bunch of roma's on now Im very pleased with how this is going.
peace!!!

 

I've got a driver's license, and Iwas thinking about hitting the road again. Once you hear the call of the Highway, it's hard to ignore it. Oh, how sweet it would be to step onto my purple home once again. where are you guys at again? Would you be willing to let me back on drew? How was compton?!

 

hey erin nice to hear from you.

you think you can handle driving the bus??
yeah Im down. were in northern washington just crossing the border were aquiring funds so that all the americans on board can cross.
Ill tell tye ferrit ryan sara and kat about you (those are the elders) and that you were on previously Ill get them to talk to you Im sure they would be down as well, I do know they plan to hit tennessee and alabama (tye is from birmingham) so I mean thats relativily close to you, and I dnot think they would mind spinning by to pick you up.

ahhh canada once again they let me cross last night so the americans waited at the border while I picked up a pack of ciggiretts and some tim hortans coffee
alas nowim in the states again
man it was cool touring threw here but I miss my own stomping ground
much love
peace

 

oh yeah
compton was fun we met some cool local cats there.
met this guy who writes a revolutionary press he wanted me to write for him whime I get back home.
had a barbeque at this block party
good freeakin chicken man

 

Hey Drew, WELCOME HOME!!!! Have you lost your eh yet? All the other bus friends WELCOME TO CANADA!!! Are you guys driving straight through now? With your southern tans? to show off to us freezing canadians? Bring the heat will ya? Anyways got to run, have a safe trip home, and Drew, I hope to talk to you soon........actually excited! you believe that?

Lots of love

 

yeah were headng straight back, Ill be home in a few days.....man I love bieng back in canada, we all got in alright they didnt even bring the dogs on the bus....

its wierd I got used to the american prices now Im back home and our money fly's so freaking quickly


peace

 

hello ummmmmmmmm yea well i am tye i am from alabama and am going to keep the bus and the love kickin i plan on heading south after toronto it will stay commuinty
highwaychild will keep trucking erin ill be through soon
peace and love tye