Hey all, I've done something really bad and don't know what to do! Well I've posted about my relationship in the past, it hasn't been the best, but it hasn't been the worst either. It's been tough because she played away at one point early on in the relationship, but I forgave and we moved forward. Recently we've been constantly arguing and I'm really starting to get fed up of being accused of doing things when I actually didn't, until last night. There's a staff night out on friday, I only started to work there 9 weeks ago so I do really want to go out and be part of it. The supervisor that's organizing it gave me her number so I could find out the details. Now, I don't know how it happened, but it turned out to be more than just texting details. I felt bad at first, but I kept texting back, and I know I shouldn't! I've never done anything like this before. Anyways, she invited me over last night, and being the stupid testosterone fuelled male that I am, I went over. We sat and talked for 3 hours, and kissed. I don't know what to feel about this, as I know I really didn't like it when it happened to me. The only problem is though it didn't feel wrong, I don't feel guilty, but at the same time I really don't want to hurt her, I love her. I'm really confused! However it does make me feel better that I've gotten it off of my chest. Thanks y'all.
well if you love your woman, channel your sexual energy to her. and think about what a good woman you have, and continously think about all the good things about your girl, and how she really makes you feel...anything directed towards anybody else is just a lust fasade
Off topic: I've read quite a few posts similar to this but from women, and those who reply go absolutely BATSHIT on the girls, telling them how much of a godless whore they are, if you did that you don't really love him, you have no respect for yourself or your man, you'll always be a cheater so just go kill yourself now, etc etc. I don't see that here so far. Why is that? Hmm... On topic: Ok yeah, you fucked up. But if you truly know that you fucked up and feel remorse and will never do it again then just sweep it under the rug and move on. Trust me, the guilt you will endure in the coming months will torment you enough if you aren't sorry enough already. It doesn't sound like you are very happy in the relationship overall though anyway, and honestly if you were truly and completely happy, you wouldn't have strayed. So maybe that's something to think about. At 19, being in love can seem like the end of the world, but it's really not... only saying so because I was there not too long ago.
Thanks for the replies everyone. I called it off with the superviser at work, I can't face hurting my gf like she hurt me, and it will torment me, I feel really bad for letting it get this far, all the sneaking around and everything! I'm also going to think long and hard on my current relationship too, as this whole scenario has changed the way I think on it. Like you said SweetBlasphemy, if I was truly happy, I wouldn't have strayed. It's not an excuse, I know. I feel like I've done the right thing even though it could've turned into something a lot more than it was, she made me happy and I quite like her. Sometimes life is a bitch though eh? Again, thanks for the support!
