yesterday i had a good time until i was on this couch and listening to some music. i felt something for my self i have never felt for myself before. i felt ashamed. today that ashamed feeling carried over. i felt today as if everyone was looking at me and knew what i was thinking. and that everything was going to be just broken apart if you did the wrong thing. i realise that we live i realise that we are so small i think that we are a very large part in what we deem existance... and that if we dont play our part it could break. i want tosee what it will break through to
Hey Sef What you wrote is interesting Not u sure u meant u were feeling bad I more get it as if you were discovering something new in you Was it always there? But unseen, or? We are all responsible as part of a whole Love
Me too! But because I know lots of random people, from different social groups, everyone seems to think I'm always with someone else, and always busy. But when I'm around people I don't know so well I start texting someone because I'm afraid they'll think I have no friends, but if I'm texting they'l think I do. That's so pathetic. ah well.
Sometimes I think people are reading my mind, so I send them messages just to make sure.... a time or two the person did what I asked them to do in my mind. :-O
this world is exactly neither more nor less fucked up then the refusal of people to connect the friggin dots is making it! and absolutely nothing else has a damd thing to do with making it that way =^^= .../\...
Cool, I hope your serious cuz i always start off believing people, and then if I learn that they are not serious I only then doubt them. I have had some equally weird stuff go on in my life.
Sef, maybe you just really felt the world out. It's kinda like you really understood what the crap was going on around you. And good for you, I'm glad you're not smoking. Well, keep up the meditation, and remember to "free your mind. The Matrix has you man." -Foamy
