Getting engaged after just 6 mos? Couple that with your apparent unresolved feelings for your ex. It sounds like you need another person to love in order to validate yourself. You need to learn to love yourself before you commit to a long term relationship. You need to understand that you don't need anyone else to be validated. You are an wonderful person yourself. And if you're not, you need to find out why you feel this way about yourself. Most people need professional help to sort that out but some can do it with the help of friends.