I have a major sleeping pill addiction, It started 3 years ago after a doctor prescribed me zopiclone for sleep disturbance. I started on one pill per day now i,m closer to taking 15-20 per day. I spend all my money on them and i think i maybe pysically addicted aswell as emotionally. My freinds and more importantly my family have no idea as over time i have grown less close too people. I have never spoken openly to people about this problem, my periods have stopped i also cannot recall events from the past few years even though i should like one of my sisters weddings or my first niece being born.I promise myself that i will stop but that day never arrives it feels like a non stop circle that i cannot quit i lie steal and cheat to get the amount of pills i need for that day. Dreading having to spend time with my parents, as my lies are getting worse having to cover up why i look the way i do or why i have no friends or plans for the future.Everyday is a struggle i sleep 16 hours per day and my body clock is a mess.Simple things have no pleasure any longer and just dragging myself out of bed is etting more difficult everyday. Seeing my doctor again terrifies me, just the thought of sitting in the waiting area knocks me sick.After overdosing twice and being dragged pysically over a bridge to stop myself jumping while high on pills nearly got me admitted to a mental hospital.The stay in hospital after overdosing scared me really bad but not enough too stop the smell and sounds of being half dead with nurses and doctors around you put me off them for life. I am writing this short version of a very long story to warn others not to mess around with perscription drugs they can be every bit as dangerous as other substances and at 19 your life should not be destroyed.:devil:
