...diminish your capacity to feel things? You get so used to feeling things at the intense high level MJ used to give you, but now that my tolerance is much higher 2-3 later, I wonder if I haven't just fried my ability to be high during sober life. Or perhaps I'm just a person that doesn't react much (i'm 25 now). What do you think? How has your experiences been?
Are you on any anti-depressants or benzos? Those can make you "numb" to normal emotions. Or perhaps you have some sort of depersonalization disorder, which basically just detaches you from your own emotions and kinda makes you indifferent to many things.
not due to pot. not for me anyway. and its not that i cant feel emotions, i just look at the world totally different from most people. but also, i dont smoke just to get high. i think it effects you different if you primarily use it medically.
I don't know, there's not a huge difference between stoned me and sober me. I just lose a little bit of my filter when I'm smoking... I don't care as much when I smoke. About stress and shit, I mean, not important stuff.
You and smokinIVXX need a bashing in the head. Thinking too much from a simple question like that? Jesus christ... Nope. Never went to get diagnosed at least. What I'm noticing lately is moments of sudden indifference. Makes it really hard when it happens amungst a social circle, and I can't get excited or contribute. It's not that I'm upset... just...no strong emotions really arise. The jokes in my head I don't get that mental emotional support to say them. The jokes other say I obviously get them but I don't feel a sincere need to laugh, etc. Have you guys felt you've changed in your sober life after long-term use? How so? I feel like when one needs to be constantly high to be stimulated (a choice I made), I could see where the loss in care for sober times can come from. **I should probably rephrase recreational use to medical? I don't know how you guys count it but when I smoke, I'll smoke like a 4-5 days straight. Even smoking and napping, or not necessarily doing so much (I enjoy just being high and contemplating etc.)
Definitely sounds like mild to moderate depersonalization/dissocation, which can be caused by any number of things, including depression. Do you feel disconnected from your emotions/feelings? Indifference toward the things that are going on around you?
^ interesting. Could def. be that. I mean, I've spent too much time reflecting and contemplating on the fundamentals of life. I know people that do too much LSD eventually experience this, and I'm a little proud of my ego for getting to this point with very little LSD use. But yes, I'll try to do fun sober things. slow down. Have already cut back on the smoking, etc. I don't think I have an extreme version of it. I just too quickly rationalize something and then don't laugh as hard as the next guy. Thanks for the advice. I've already repp'd ya.
i've experienced similar anomalies with frequent heavy pot use. i became much too serious while sober and really quite empty (whether stoned or not) for a time. before realising that several of my friends at the time were already to that point and had been struggling with the same web of apathy for sometime. it affected me even to the point i could no longer express emotion to the girl i loved. needless to say i flicked the pot for this reason. and my full scale of emotion has returned now.
I think that feeling of being 'high while sober' will come back after a long enough period of abstinence.