My self esteem is really low. I hate everything about myself.... everything. My GF tells me I am beautiful every day, the way she looks at me and watches me is just how I do to her, but I just don't accept it. How can I get out of this? how can I stop having sex in the dark?
My advice to you is to accept yourself the way you are. Don't compare yourself to anyone else...no matter how perfect some may appear...we all have some sort of complex about ourselves. The only way you're truly going to be happy in a relationship is if you love yourself first...and feel worthy of the relationship you're in. She obviously likes you the way you are...don't let the negative energy ruin the feel good parts of your relationship. Say to yourself...fuck this shit..i am a good person...i deserve to be happy...i don't care what people think.....and she thinks i am beautiful....and so do i. Everyone should think highly of themselves...we are what we are...and no one is better. Good luck...hope things get better for you soon.
I was like that for many years until I hit a point in my life where I looked at myself in the mirror, did my hair, make-up and clothes to a T, and complimented myself. I paid attention to the things I found really beautiful about my face and body. It was so nice to finally be able to feel beautiful. When I get down and out now, I'll look at myself in the mirror and point out all of the beautiful things on my body like my smile or my eyes or something. I'll never get completely over the self conscious aspects, but at least I can feel somewhat confident in my own skin.
