Haven't felt like myself lately.

Kind of a long post hehe I'd really appreciate some feedback though

Ok, so basically I think the combination of a couple bad acid trips and smoking a whole lot of weed has done this but for the past six or seven months I've just been so "spacey" for lack of a better word. I guess a technical description of how I feel would be derealization with a little depersonalization every now and then. Everything just feels so far away.

In social situations I find myself more often just observing things like a movie instead of actually engaging people in conversation like I used to. It was cool at first cause everything looks AMAZING...the trees, the sky, nature in general, and music sounds like I'm permanently rolling which isn't so bad either. But, its just gotten too weird socially. I recently decided to quit smoking to see if that'll help me get back in touch with reality but it just seems like it'll always be like this sometimes.

So my question is does anyone else have any experience with drugs drastically changing their personality? How did you deal with it? Did you ever kinda go back to how you used to be?

I know things will never be EXACTLY how they used to be...I'm ok with that I like some of the changes...But I just wish my reaction to social situations would take a couple steps back towards how it used to be I guess.

 

I've heard of this happening to people after having used acid. A similar thing happened to me after smoking weed a lot and relying on it for my general mind set, I'd recommend laying off the drugs for a while.

I think what you need to do is realise this is all in your mind, and the "barrier" you've created isn't all that hard to brake through. Start appreciating and remembering those great feelings which come with being sober and just enjoying life with good friends and family. It's not that hard to get back into you've just got to realise it's all just in your head and you can overcome it We're all human after all, and relationships is what we rely on for our true highs.

 

I did acid a few times in high school and I noticed the same effects for about a year or two afterward. However, every time I smoke weed, my mind is in a slight fog for weeks (if I'm smoking rather regularly and I'll feel that way for a while after I stop). This only happened since I did acid.

My suggestion is to cool it for a bit and let your brain relax.

 

taking a break from the drugs for a while sounds good

maybe checkout some acupuncture or herbal medicine

if you can tell some people that you trust what is going on with you, that might help. if they are understanding, you can be social with them, or they could support you in other social situations

I think that it is likely that this will get better after a while

hope that it all works out!