Help Im tired or waisting roxis

Well ive been on suboxone for about a month- month and a half been detoxing off of it for the past two weeks took my last dose about 60 hours ago and have proceeded to use some oxycodone i have ....and nothing is this not a long enough wait for the opiate blocker to get out of my system or is my tolerance gone wayyy up? Replys would be greatly appresiated

 

Why are you going off of Suboxone and re-starting opioids? I don't mean to go "off-topic," but I think it is important to ask that here.

Do you really want to go back to Oxy addiction after months of rebuilding your life? I mean, if you do want to go back to Oxy addiction, that is your decision, but why?

 

honestly i really couldnt tell you ..impusive thinking i guess i dont know ...i just want that high again i know its not right but i dont know what to do...the subs wernt working for me for maintence and + i was starting to have bad side effects from it breaking out in rashes n hive on my tounge ...im coming off of it to get on methadone not a great desisson i know you dont gotta tell me i just dont have the modivation to move on in my like currently without a crutch i have some shit going on that id really not like to talk about. and inbetween the subs n getting on the methadone i just wanted to get high again

 

The whole idea of getting clean is to not get high again, I thought.

 

easier said then done , are you a recovering addict? once you decide to get clean that doesnt mean your going to stay clean from then on out its not magic theres slip ups things happen im only human

 

Nope, just keep some common sense lying around.
Which is why I said that 'I thought'

 

I am. And for me burying all my problems under a pile of dope didnt help at all. They were still there, they didnt go away. When I first got clean and into recovery all my past problems resurfaced. I had to learn how to deal with them apropriately, learn to accept the things that had happened. If youre not ready to quit though then it wont happen. You have to want it for yourself and nobody else. I couldnt stay clean for anybody but myself.

 

i mean no offence but if you havent gone through it you wont understand what a struggle it is

 

So, OP. Let's talk. Is your current desire to use simply a temporary "stepping stone" to last you until you get into Methadone treatment? If so, I understand that. But, also, make sure you don't have to be clean before getting into the clinic. That would not be good.

And, I hope you still try to keep your mind focused on getting clean (Methadone or whatever) and not to simply fall back into addictive behavior. I do know how you feel. It is very hard. Luckily, Suboxone works for me. Just keep your eye on the future of being off of recreational use.

 

n see thats the thing i dont know if im ready to quit its a rollercoaster ride every day like i want to but i just dont know if im ready yet its an everyday struggle

 

right on etkearne thank you for the modavional words greatly appresiated...n yeah i have to piss dirty for the clinic or i wont qualifiy for the methadone

 

You are right. I made sure things were pretty stable in my life before taking the plunge into Suboxone.

It sounds like you need to talk to someone who knows what's up in your life/situation or make a "Pros/Cons" chart to see if the benefits of getting clean now outweighs the problems associated with getting clean now. But, in the meantime, I would try to keep your use down as low as you can without too many cravings. It will allow you to see the situation more objectively.

 

No, I haven't gone through an opiate addiction, specifically.
I do know what a struggle it is to deal with one, so don't knock me.
If you didn't want someone to devils advocate, don't post in a public forum.

 

right on thank you

 

i wasent knocking you, thats why i said no offence... its just not that easy to say hey im getting clean n never use again its not a switch you shut off its there forever even when your 100% commited

 

I'm a recovering addict. 16 months clean from a 5 yr. 300mg per day oxy habit. I haven't touched it since too. It sounds like you're not at rock bottom yet. Once you are is when you'll be 100% commited. Withdrawl is a roller coaster ride as well.... but the ride eventually slows down.

 

Hardest part for me is shaking the lifestyle. I always thought to myself, without doing dope will my life really be that better? I do remember having lots of money and spending it on stuff i dont need, but i seem to be happier with no money in my pocket, just sittin around doing nothing. So you really got to tell yourself, i hate how im living and i want to be the old me.

 

Congratulations, you are a strong person...keep it goin!

 

The blockers in the subs only last a couple days for me until I can start taking opiates again.

Yet, I'm not on a sub program and taking them on a scheduled basis for an extended amt of time. It still shouldn't be no longer than a week for it to be released from ur system in ur case.

 

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