What do I do? Am I just spoiled?

I cannot stand the suburbs. Just seeing it hurts my eyes.

I have never had regular employment. I live at home with my mother. I am twenty years of age. And I practically have no friends.

I dropped out of High school in the 12th grade following my father's death. I was never any good at school, even though I am an intelligent, largely self-educated person. After that I went to live in a Yeshiva in Jerusalem, against the desires of everyone I know, all of whom urged me not to go (note: a Yeshiva is an Orthodox Jewish learning institution). I had been living as a religious Jew for about one year prior, and ended up spending about 6 months there. It was the best, and only real decision, I have ever made for myself.

However, for many reasons, I decided that I am not a believer, and as such opted to leave the Yeshiva. At the urging of my family I returned to the United States to study in community college. After two semesters I have found it to be a disappointment, much like high school was. I just can't bear the "suburban atmosphere", the petty materialistic attitudes of many people. The people I have always gotten along best with are weirdos. I remember in high school my only friends were some poor mexicans and punks, in a school full of rednecks, jocks, and skin heads.

My family has since moved to a more affluent, "idyllic", white, boring-ass suburb.

I don't know what to do with myself. I have no friends. I'm no longer enrolled in school. I have no job.

I just need some words of encouragement I guess (or to be chastised lol).

 

Welcome to the club. As long as I can remember I have felt different from everyone else. I feel as if no one will ever understand me, but fuck it. I finally have realized that I am unique and and special. Even though I feel like an outsider now at least I am not lame and narrow minded like the rest of society. You will find your niche in life someday.

 

You sound like you need a change. Go work in the bush.

 

What you are going through sounds about right for your age. Don't be alarmed you are going through a very important self discovery and learning phase. Enjoy the ride.

 

Go put in applications in a bunch of places. And then check up on them.

 

... count the things you have instead of what you don't:

Legs to carry you round the world, arms to work with, the need to be on your own, a suspicion such as 'this can't be all', and a sense of adventure telling you changes are ahead ... once you realize the suburb too is just a through road, not a prison.

Once you get in tune with what is yours to do, all the rest will fall into place (or out of it) ... sounds as simple as it is.

 

It sounds like your mind is churning, questioning your place in the world. As long as that is happening you will find what you are looking for, no worries at all. Read all you want, experience all you want. As above poster said, enjoy the ride!

 

get a job and move out.

 

seriously...you often make me laugh...and I often think your advice is sound! :2thumbsup:

i agree. spoiled it is.

 

yeah I agree, too...sounds to me like your head is stuck in your ass and you need actually start doing things for yourself

 

Sorry but I think you’re a spoiled little brat who’s been sucking on his mother’s tit for too long and has gotten accustomed to the taste.

Go out there and get a fucking job


Hotwater

 

I know what you mean by hating the suburbs because that's where I am and it's pretty stupid, sad, necessary, grey. makes you think a lot less of the world, which can make you depressed. I'm not god or anything but IMO things will get better. the only reason you seem so depressed is because you live in the suburbs and probably all you see all day is the bitchy and self centered nature of spoiled individuals.

 

I hate corporate jobs, they eat my happiness and my soul at once.

 

Sorry, but you're an idiot. Spoiled? Would you have the balls to go to the other side of the globe to undertake religious training against the wishes of everyone you know? I'm 100% sure you wouldn't. Your attitude doesn't help anyone.

 

He did it for all the wrong reasons :toetap05:

He wanted to prove to everyone that he had the balls to do something completely bizarre and once he discovered he was over his head he fled back home to his momma

BTW: I in the military for 6 years so yes I'm quite well traveled


Hotwater

 

Uhh.. he said he left because he wasn't a believer. But if you want to assume things, I'll just assume you enrolled in the military because you wanted to prove you weren't the weakling with no backbone that you really felt like inside. 6 years can barely be more than the minimum serving time.

 

In the future I suggest you learn to read between the lines ~ duh


Hotwater

 

if you get a job you can afford to support yourself and move out of the suburbs.

If you go back to school and get a degree you will open many doors for yourself, including the door that exits the suburb.

get a job. or get a degree. and get out of the suburbs. find your happiness.

open and shut case.

 

head up man. everything comes to an end at one point. and the end is just the beginning....

 

"you must spread some reputation around before giving it to walsh again"

but I feel you OP, I just escaped the burbs after 1.5 years and I'd rather die than go back