Describe what makes you

The little things in life i enjoy...
My boyfriend mainly

 

That's a tough question... How do I even know I'm alive?

 

Many things:

Creativity
Expression
Freedom
Love
Music

And my personal favorite..... *points skyward*

 

being angry, and hurt, and low. That makes me feel alive. Being happy always feels surreal. Or even more so like a flat out lie. I never truly feel alive until life sucks. The rest of the time I feel led on, and deceived.

 

alive? no, i am dead on the inside....

music, a special person, and full moons. those things make me feel alive...

 

Drugs, Sex, Rock and Roll....

NOT!!!!

 

It's actually Absinthe, Sodomy and Doom Metal

 

does scotty stapp make you feel alive?

 

tee hee

i used to do that.

 

No



Please don't get me started on cutting stories...thanks

 

mmmmmm cutting lets not go there. i had the urge tonight...


feeling alive, fresh air, crisp clean and cold...

 

I just dont see what people's fascinations are with cutting......... I know I hate myself sometimes, but I would never go so far in cutting or torturing myself..... even if you do feel eupohoric after it, its only temporary. whatever floats people's boats I guess.

 

i found it when i was 16, i was just angry and couldnt kill other people so i took it out on myself, it helped me feel powerful for some reason...


i dont do it often, but it happens when i get really angry or in dispear!

you wouldnt understand unless you were there.

 

Very true.. most people do not understand

 

gettin drunk... and social situations... there's something about going out and having a blast, then not remembering the next day... that makes me feel alive for some odd reason.

 

I've never been into cutting either... I like to supress things! Haha j/k... I just channel my anger into something useful...

 

hitting my thumb with a hammer, stubbing my toe, banging my head on a corner.

Pain, mostly.

Re: cutting. I guess it is similar to the two times I broke a hand when in frustrated helplessness at my situation, I punched something real solid, (so I wouldn't break anything or cause damage.), once it was a door frame, and the other time, a concrete wall.
At the time I was so pissed off, I didn't feel it at all, and the release was probably a good thing......

 

being away from people and cities and just taking in nature makes me feel a part of it all and really alive. sounds corny i know.

 

Not being arround anyone who knows me makes me feel alive.

being able to take advantage of not having to worry about anything
with mellowness, meditation and detatchment, in such rare moments
as any of us really don't, is probably the next best thing.

needless to say i haven't felt really alive like that since i've been
married. nor have i ever felt really alive living with any one.

but the times i slept out in the woods, even when it was because
i had to because i was homeless, yah, that IS when i felt really alive.

basicly it's just a matter of being away from the coerciveness of human society.

now if i could completely survive that way for the rest of my life i'd be in hog heavin

=^^=
.../\...

 

I felt pretty lively 19/9/1999 around 3 PM.