Xanax, a gift from heaven, or curse from hell?

It has nothing to do with how often I smoke, it is how the high has developed for me. When i smoke i think to much about stupid things and get anxiety. If i could take away the fact that i "worry" when I'm high on Weed it would be a better experience for me, like it was when i was younger. These days is only like that sometimes, more often that not i get to "heady". It is probably just me, I'm just self conscious.

On another note; i would like to get a script for it b/c i can't sleep well on occasions. Opiates help and i would prefer them but they are only prescribed for pain.

 

It's shockingly easy to get it perscribed.... You could probably just ASK for it. Just say you have social/general/whatever anxiety, and whatever they put you on, it ususally won't work for a week or so, so just say you need relief NOW, and can't really wait for shit to kick in. I did kind of start going to TRY to get xanax, but I did try almost every other anti-anxiety med out there and they all either didn't work, or had horrible side effects. If you really feel you need it, go for it.

 

Yes, i had asked my family doc and he said he couldn't give me the script, that i need to speak to a psychiatrist. So tomorrow i go to talk to someone 9:15 am, im excited b/c i only slept 3 hrs last night. I hate it some nights are great i sleep fine and wake up feeling great in the morning. All i want it to be able to sleep comfortably, with my girl,wake up with her and start her of on her day, i feel very guilty if i can't do that.

 

I hate and love xanax as well - And I'm not trying to preach here - trust me - but from experience, the withdrawls are ABSOLUTE HELL - literally. last summer I ended up having 911 called on me bcuz my fiance didn't know what was wrong with me - I don't remember anything, and it was a slow built up of sleep deprivation and withdrawls that ultimately led me to this... I had been off of xanax for 10 days, I could NOT sleep for literally ONE week due to the withdrawls, and I started hallucinating REALLY REALLY BADDDDDD!!!! It was like I was on acid, but really bad acid, my friend thought I had a brain tumor, I mean it was bad. Once I got to the hospital they asked my fiance what meds I was taking and he told them, they gave me xanax, knocked me out with something, and when I woke up I was FINE! They were literally stunned that I was NORMAL bvuz of the condition I arrived in the night before. Everyone that worked there kept coming up to me saying "OMG YOU LOOK SO GOOD NOW, WOW!" - because they had me down as "GRAVELY DISABLED" - and I wasn't on ANY DRUGS - this is purely from no sleep and withdrawls, I was not on any other meds at all.

Pretty scary. And I'm a normal person with no mental health problems - I got the xanax from my Dr bcuz it helped with my Fiance's insomnia and didn't give him a hangover - then I started using it bcuz he gave me SO many xanax a month, and I liked how it calmed me down if I got anxious - so I depended on it, but one day I just stopped, and that's a BIG NO NO. Never again!

Taper people, even if it kills ya, TAPER!!!!!!

I still take them but with caution - but if you have never taken them, and don't have to - I urge you NOT TO TRY THEM - the withdrawls are literally like being trapped in an acid filled hell. NO JOKE AT ALL.

 

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^YUP!

nice post

 

I clicked a chapter with something about withdrawls in the name and saw graphs talking about cocaine.

Cocaine = very strong mental addiction in some people, to the point of physical symptoms, but no true physical dependency.

You're pretty much a failure at drugs and understanding them. And you're hearing that from someone who loves drugs. Any idiot can write a book about drugs, not any idiot can write an accurate or worthwhile book about drugs.

About xannies, recreationally, I didn't find it to be fun, just sleepy.

 

wow, what a constructive feedback. calling me an idiot really sheds new light to the whole discussion at hand and explains the alternative point of view. seems like you really got down to the bottom of it with that.

 

Thank you

 

Maybe not an idiot, but definitely ignorant as fuck if you don't think addiction exists.

 

The fact that addiction is a cop-out is well known. A lot of people go "oh, I'm addicted, I can't help it" and don't even try to fight the addiction.

The people who do this are weak in the first place. Even if they didn't want an excuse, it's unlikely they could fight addiction. "powerful" is a rather SMALL word, for something like opiate addiction. Even if taking the drug i half the addiction, and being on the drug is the other half (various needle addictions, some people can get their fix with water) it's still two powerful addictions, instead of JUST one.

 

I agree with this...

I am addicted to xanax, because I abuse them. I wind up taking 2-4mgs a day and im only perscribed 1-2mgs a day. So when my script runs out, It fucking sucks and is HELL.

 

All things considered, you're doing good, imo.

 

I've never been a big fan of xanax, I find it to be too overpowering. I take two 1mg klonopin a day along with two 20mg adderall ir's. I'm fairly certain I don't have ADHD, and while I do have some anxiety issues, they're not unmanageable. I think my doctor felt I needed something after being on methadone and suboxone for like 5 years. The combination has helped me to finally get off suboxone which is one of the hardest things to endure. Is it healthy to take an amphetamine/benzo cocktail everyday? Probably not. But its certainly better than heroin and free basing coke (which I did for several years prior to being on the methadone and suboxone). I'm a big believer in western medicine. These hard working people at the pharmaceutical companies put in the time and effort to make these wonderful chemicals for us, it would be wrong if we didn't at least give some of them a go.

 

OK. here's my take on the whole addiction thing:

I'm not claiming physical tolerance doesn't exist, that the withdrawal effects don't exist. Tolerance and withdrawal are physiological facts that come with drug use. Addiction however is a psychological phenomenon, and it is not what it's made out to be all over the media. The reasons why ppl do drugs are infinitely varied and so are the reasons why ppl continue their drug use. Is continued drug use alone an addiction? Of course not. Many ppl use drugs and continue to use them throughout long periods of time without any complications. It is when their life is all fucked up and the drug use worsens it and when in the face of it those ppl still continue to use drugs (their own claim that they are incapable of quitting is irrelevant) that ppl start throwing in the diagnosis of addiction. Compulsive behavior is what it is in its essence. Addiction is a bogus term. By that definition anybody who persistently continues to do something even if it screws up their life is an addict. Generations of musicians, artists, scientists fall under the definition of addict by that reasoning. In any case ppl who continue to use drugs within the range that is described by addiction do so under subtle and intricate psychological framework. It's not some mysterious inexplicable inability to quit drugs, or the loss of free will. It's some other underlying problem going on in that person's life that drugs might relieve, self-destructive behavior, hanging out in certain social circles, defiance of certain other social circles, self-identifying with a certain lifestyle. Pick any. It's a constellation of underlying psychological, social and environmental conditions. The fact that we can't always understand or see the underlying psychological/social variables that influence a person's drug use doesn't categorize it as physical incapability to give up drugs. Any person can quit drugs any time he wants. If he doesn't quit, it means he doesn't want to. Whether it's all subconscious or not makes no difference.

You can say whatever you want ab me, call me an idiot, whatever. But you, you're not even willing to consider that addiction might be something other than what it is made out to be. You buy into what the TV says about it. You unquestioningly accept the second-hand accounts about it, 3rd person opinions, which may be influenced by their upbringing, education, influence from their peers. You don't use your brain to think, you let other ppl do the thinking for you. Even if you've had first hand experience with ppl who have drug problems, that still influences the way you see and interpret their problem. And in the presence of experience it all creates an impression of being unquestioningly true, even though it's completely false.

I'm sure a lot of irrational heat and rebellion against my theory will now follow because I just accused you of not having your own brain.