I've been having very very vivid dreams prophetic kind of. like scenes of my family getting in car wrecks and people breaking in my house and slaughtering them and me running up the street to hide while they look for me. and like friends, seeing them dissappear in front of my face. there are these weird ass demon looking things they are at the edge of my bed when i wake up and they tell me shit in my dreams about satan has a plan for me and i am marked from birth and not a child of christ but a soldier for satan. i see shadows on the wall, and like ill look in my mirror it will get foggy and letters spell out messages like if i close my eyes they go away for a lil bit. i was walking around town at like morning hours looking for an angel i was supposed to have met to slay him because he was working for god incorporated trying to stop satans plan to like take over the earth and shit. i approached this man, i thought he was a angel in disguise and told him "i know" he looked at me weird like i said" don't look stupid i KNOW" he started pacing away from me fast. i just followed him and started trying to hit him with my hands til he just ran away. i gave up and i heard a voice in my head like "FAILURE" they tell me if i don't cut their names in my arm satan will have me. roscal. dennis. and candy. are three of them. they say they're names are human to disguise as ghosts as they are really hih powered demons. idk.... i tell everyone what is going on l but they think im crazy or makin stuff up. idk. right now im pretty level headed but i could flip into the "war" mode again. idk what to do!
You're probably going through a phase. I started going through something similar a year before. I refused to be alone at any point during the day. I think I became too focused on it, and it started showing up in my dreams and my daily life. I took a trip with some friends and slept out in the forest all alone, and since then I've cleared my head. Try to get your mind off of it
it's not something i jsut think about and can turn off its there all the time. i'm starting to hear voices in my head talking to me, they all have different tones of voics and personalities... they explain plans for armageddon and how i am going to be involved with it. i'll be walking down the street and see people and like it goes into "radar" mode. like a target like from a robot goes on them and says annihilate. and voices start screaming and stuff. if i go by churches i get weird feelings like naseous and shit. and i start getting very irritated. i've been having black outs as well.. waking up in places i don't recall going to. being told i've done things i don't remember. all kinds of weird things
Well, it's probably a bad idea to listen to these "voices." The blackouts are definitely something to be concerned about. I've always been curious if in cases like this the voices are actually audible or if it's more like some runaway stream of conciousness. As unrelated as this might sound, I came across an interesting article over @ scientific american entitled "Neural Feedback: Brain Influences Itself with Its Own Electric Field." I'm not sure how cool hipforums is with posting links, so you can just google that title of the article and find it fairly easily. Here's an excerp: The article just seemed semi-relevant to a situation like yours, so I figured I'd throw it out there. Suffice it to say, IMHO, if there's a god or satan out there I'm pretty sure they can handle their own problems w/o any intervention from us. If I were you I'd fall back on some meditation. Practice mindfullness. Learn to clear your head, focus your mind, hold attention on some project. Maybe try a change in diet, or get some exercise, or take up a new interest, or find some interesting material to read that can take your mind off things for a bit. I get weird feelings in churches too sometimes, but never really what I'd call good or bad. Personally I think it's the incense. The specific kind of incense common to christian churches has an ingredient, Frankincense, which has been proven to have psychoactive properties to it. I don't really avoid churches (weddings etc), I just try to keep it in mind.. maybe reinforce positive thoughts in my head, that sort of thing. The brain's a pretty damned complicated thing, and as a general rule of thumb the last thing I'd ever do is to will negative actions when I'm feeling like I have less control of my mind. It's like getting in the driver's seat when you're not all there. I mean no man can tell another what to do, but a life isn't something you can just easily replace. You could even try some mental exercises when these things happen. Try taking a deep breath, holding in your mind the will not to do these things. Focus on those thoughts; hold onto it as a positive mental reenforcement. If you're around negative influences, try going for a walk, or finding some place that's isolated where you can just be. Just going from one extreme mentally to another extreme physically may not be that healthy. Maybe find a library and wander around the non-fiction section for a bit. See if something catches your fancy. You get the idea. Just don't take yourself too seriously at times like that. It can be a dangerous thing.
mate i;m telling you nothing you don't already know... you got big time problems going down in your head. right now you sound like you still have a sound mind but, your mind is becoming un-sound quite quickly! i advise you to get to a psychologist, to have a battery of tests run, to see if a pattern for your problem can be found. from what you have said so far, i have a "hunch" that you have a combnation of neurological and psychological shit going down with yourself. i can't say for sure that my hunch is correct or not. you need to get the psychological testing run to know if i'm correct or not. your in one hell of a very, very, very, bad and dangerous place right now! DON'T WALK BUT, RUN FOR HELP RIGHT NOW! if you do nothing about the state your in... i see you doing something that will bring the law down on your head then, you really will be in a world of shit! get yourself help right away!
