I hate my friends.

Well, "hate" is a strong word, but definitely dislike.

I only chill with them because they're the only people who have any time for me. I don't have a job. I got my GED and pretty much got lazy and stopped after that. I'm broke all the time. They live close-by and are a little less ignorant than all the other people who live in these slums.

But I think they're horrible people. They treat me nice enough, but just on their own, they suck. I just think they have rotten personalities and stupid ideals. They're about as deep as kiddie pools, and about as creative as fucking rocks. No. Let me not insult the rocks. Or any other inanimate object. There's just no excitement, and they're impossible to open up to because they're extremely judgmental. Societal mentality, y'know? To them, if you wear all black a majority of the time, you're so eccentric, it's worth noting. How did I end up being surrounded by preppy assholes? It's not... you know... winter time or anything. And black doesn't... you know... match with EVERYTHING. I must be grieving, or "emo."

But, I still chill with them. And until I'm worth any of my own fucking time, I'm gonna keep on. And I'm going to keep disliking them, and being bored, and irritated. And I'm gonna keep bitching and not doing anything about it. And hiding how I really feel and talking about it on the internet to a bunch of strangers behind their backs. And just being fake in general.

 

have fun with that!

 

have you ever considered ditching your shitty friends and working on yourself until you become someone you like?

 

get a fucking job and make new friends

 

I really don't like my one friend too much but he's really clingy and I feel a little bad for him, and I don't have it in me to straight up cut him out.
I am trying to slowly ween him off of me.

 

No sleep till Brooklyn!!!!!

 

I know I should stop sitting around and complaining. I also know that I dwell so much on how much I dislike my associates because it makes me take a little bit of the heat off myself. :/ It's easier to admit it though than fix it. I do plan to fix it though. I just think I should vent a little first.

 

Ever stop to consider they might just be typing away on some other forum about you?

 

Haha. I'm pretty sure they are. They definitely talk about me in real life. >_< Which is actually when I first started seriously raging, months ago.

 

Get a girlfriend... or boyfriend.

 

get a dog.

 

i resent my friends a lot. but then they aren't my best 'friends', just the guys i hang with the most.

my best friends are married/have children so it's hard to see them.

 

I love all of my friends. I wouldn't choose to be around people I 'hated'.

 

you become a little less spoiled for choice as you get older

 

wow, I clicked on this thread thinking our situations were similar and it looks like they couldn't be more the opposite

 

you said you friends are as creative as rocks. and they show no excitement. and that you do not enjoy hanging out with them. and that you only hang out with them because they are the only people that have time for you and that you get bored and irritated hanging out with them?

well then you too are as creative as a rock if you can't figure out something else to do in your life than hang out these people.

 

Do you have any idea how poor I am?

 

you don't need money when you have creativity

 

what does that have to do with anything at all? Typically people with money are much less creative than dirt poor people. People with money don't -have- to create anything because they can just buy a shitty machine-made version of it

 

I once met a guy, he was poor and homeless, but guess what, he wasn't skin and bones, he was clean shaven and didn't smell horrible, he wasn't really insane, but i bet he sure was creative....

I kinda get what your saying, your poor, your a product of your environment and life isn't fair, so you deal with what you can get, all the while not taking advantage of the opportunities passing you buy... My advice is focus on yourself for 4-5 years, get an education a job and get the fuck outta the ghetto and meet some decent people./