I have had to move back to Dallas and recover and I couldn't finish my 2nd Bachelors down in Corpus Christi, all because I was hooked on: cocaine, heroin, xanex, ritalin and smoked too much pot. The only reason that I called my parents was because I ran out of money to pay my rent, and I admitted to them that I was a junkie. My Mom came down to help me move back in with them in Dallas. I told them I would be clean, but I lied to them instead and I continued to get high. Finally, they found out that I was still using drugs, and threatened to kick me out of the house if I did it again. I have been clean for almost two months now. But, I'm still craving the drugs sometimes. I have this fear inside me that once I find a job and move out somewhere, I will re-lapse. Heroin is incredibly hard to quit, and I'm afraid that I will always be craving it. I don't know what to do. I want to stay sober so bad, but there seems to be this little demon inside that wants me to take drugs again. I have no money for insurance. I'm hoping that these cravings will go away in a few more months. Has anyone else gone through this? I really would like some advice, please.
Hey man I give you props for getting through the toughest part It must have been hard to get through the physical withdraws. Now it should all be mental, but that is still hard, I dont know if the want to use will ever completelygo away but try to hang with freinds who dont use, and pick up a hobby it makes things easier. good luck.
Man I wish you the best. Ive tried several times and have made it thru the physical withdrawls. The mental shit though is tough and ive never made it thru it successfully. Ive quit many drugs successfully with know relapse but opiates are a different game. Im going on a suboxone program next week but I still got alot of doubts to whether or not I can stay clean [without the help of drugs] Stay strong and hang out with clean people. I wish you the best.
The mental cravings will eventually subside alot. I'm almost 13 months now. Do I still think about opies? every other day! Do I ''crave'' them? After what I went through to get off the shit... fuck no!
I still on occasion think about heroin even though I have been clean for years. but honestly It got easier every single year that passed. I rarely ever think about using, and when I do, it gets squashed easily. It will get better. I was never addicted to that much at once, so I commend you for getting through 2 months already. I believe htat you want to quit you can!! Just keep on trying and get many distractions to keep from thinking about it. Go to school, or get a really demanding job. Just try to distract yourself. If you are not against all drugs, I would recommend ibogaine, it completely made me not really want or crave the drug at all anymore. I do think about it, but thinking and craving it to me are very different things. Craving is like you have to have it. those cravings are gone. anyways good luck. You can do this! Life not messed up on pharma and heroin is so worth it.
You probably always will crave heroin. Most clean junkies do. It's like alcoholism, you can get clean, but you're still a junkie, and still have to keep fighting it... You CAN, however, live on your own and fight it, if you can fight it now. Time will make it easier, the longer you go without a relapse the longer you CAN go. If you're tempted to use, think about all the pain and cravings you've fought back thus far, and think how you'll have to go through all of them again, only worse, if you use... Take some acid, or mushrooms.
I suppose you could try this stuff called lettuce opium, you can order it offline. Its a opium like high and believe me its better than nothing. Even find somthing to do other than shooting up (Like smoking a bowl, painting, or just a cigarette and music, like me.)
If you really want to turn it around, try yoga, join a Tai Chi group, or go with one of those pilates things.
neither do junkies idiot, is your definition of win - losing everyone that cares for you and dieing alone in a gutter? just curious... I mean that usually doesn't happen to people that kick heroin.. i don't see why you find humor appropriate in this thread
Reality is a difficult brand of freedom but living in a fantasy is just a comfortable form of slavery. I sincerely hope you break free. I hope i can do it as well.
My advice was to take LSD and learn to love life, worked for me. Did you know LSD was used as treatment for alcoholics? What was your advice? "quitters never win" ..... Horrible, what does it even mean? win what? You may not be an idiot sir, and if not your advice doesn't reflect your character well. Obviously you were trying to be humorous, your humor however was lost on me.
"your humor however was lost on me"- I dont think you ever found it. Plus taking LSD would make things worst! Just look what it has done to you I mean really!
There was none to find. What did it do to me? I really don't want to argue with you but you obviously have no clue what you are talking about.
I got on low dose Suboxone and began to take sporadic 2C-I "trips" which has seemed to reduce my cravings to use opioids.
