WHAT I’VE LOVED Inspired by the novel “What I Loved” by Siri Hustvedst ONE. He seduced me with his fingers Skin against steel Her laughter rose and fell in the night As I stood there listening Forgotten Absence makes me lose him Until I walk past the unknown Turning my head, trying to take a peek Finally! The moment Insecurities fly free He’s laughing now And it was because of me Forgotten, again Absence to blame Until a chance What is he doing to me? Visits become more frequent Am I really here every day? “He’s in nearly all of my dreams..” “Must be a sign” a friend says TWO. There’s no reason for this We both have things to do It’s 3am, it’s getting late He’s moving closer Bending close Mind in a panic Is he really doing this? This can’t be happening Lips touch Hands move Skin ablaze No, I don’t want to stop Perfect, twice Fingers making pictures on my back He’s so warm, how is he this warm? Darkness Opened eyes This isn’t a dream As he grips me tight And kisses me through my hair THREE. Love All that there is Infatuation I can’t get enough Belongings packed I’m with you now As I always have been Just now, nowhere else to go Our love has gone She slipped away My heart has broken Are you okay? We’ll get through this Together Family We’ll just have to always remember FOUR. Insecure I think he’s starting to hate me What am I doing? I think I’m starting to hate me Can’t think straight Losing my grip If I feel so safe with him Then why do I feel like it’s all about to fall? Does he still love me? Like then? Does he hate it when I ask? I would How can I believe that he loves me When I can’t find a reason There isn’t a single thing I can pick Quiet, stoic, reflective Constant reassurance I hate putting him through this I’m trying to stop - He’ll get sick of this I hope he sees, this isn’t him I’m at war, with myself Or who I used to be FIVE. Unsure Scared He makes a decision That I force him to change Everythings been undone Shit, this hurts I had him in my head as the one Did it mean anything to him? I can’t let go of him this easy I had no idea It could break so easily Surely, it has to be harder
