I feel like I'm dying or everything around me is dying. I feel detached and socially awkward. I no longer leave my house. Not because I'm afraid of death but because I'm afraid of other people. I can't find any way to relate to them anymore. I am just a nervous wreck and not bubbly like I used to be. I always feel very negative or dead.
Well your very much alive! Everyone has patchs in life of feeling disconnected try sitting under a tree, resting against it feel the energy of connextion its guaranteed to make you feel better and bring you back to life- Remember nothing lasts for ever, let me know how you get on xxx
I truly recommend you speak to a doctor of this, also a therapist may be a wise decision also. I speak from experience, I am very agoraphobic and suicidal. Therapy has help so very much along with medication, some may not agree among the medication route but it really does help.
I have also been found to be agoraphobic with severe anxiety. Medication does help to a certain existent. Talk to a doctor, that's good place to start. There is help out there, I know it sucks living that way. If you ever fell like talking feel free to pm me. I'm no expert but I'm living it and I'm a good listener. Hang in there, it will get better,
my partents are fond of saying "if you're not busy being born, you're busy dying." So, you're intuition is correct in a literal sense. However, what will be is not what is. New lives are coming into existence every day. There are more people alive today than are projected to have died in recorded history. Death is just life's way of recycling. my big idea for the day is this: don't worry about relating to other people. try improving your relationship with your self, and everything else will fall into place.
build things around you.,. maybe clean your room, take a shower, paint, plant trees and flowers.. while i think some people struggle with depression is because it so hard to catch up on building. the more you try the harder it seems. try and take appreciation in something little, maybe feeding some birds, squirrels where you live.. see small things in life that generate life and feeling, have feelings for a plant and grow with it, being to paint your room and grow with it.. Dont sit around all day smoking, drinking, eating fast food consuming garbage and expect to feel well and alive. its not the world thats dying, its you..
im sort of in the same boat- ive had depression for ~20 years and only summoned up the courage to get help about 3 months ago. ive started on medication and talking to a psych, and whilst its not an instant fix, i certainly think its helping. some good advice has already been posted here, the 1st step (which is probably the hardest) is talking to someone. its hard to think that there's any light, but you'd be surprised just how helpful a fresh mind can be in helping you.
love yourself. its contagious if you can't relate to anyone around you anymore... maybe its time to relocate
have the respondents and OP seriously investigated fluoride and bromide poisoning as the cause? The stated symptoms are exactly the symptoms of halide poisoning, although there are several others which can dominate. I'm not going to repost the remedy, it's on one of my other posts. I bet assholes to elbows the OP has been around fluoridated water for some length of time of at least a year, has toothpaste which is fluoridated, and is exposed to bromides in the environment (manufactured 'breads' and cocacola contain it, as well new furniture, building, and new infant clothing commercially-produced for 0 to 1 yrs old). Join the iodine group on yahoo and check it out.
From my own history, i grew up around organic veg. My neighbour was a mad-organic veg farmer/gardener. he had his whole yard tore-up to grow veg from before I popped-out. .. So, I knew what good food was. Problem was - since 1950's instead of iodine in bread, the commercial factories run by the masters of babylon use bromide instead in their 'bread' of babylon (really shit but we'll skip that for now..), and I was getting several ml (milligrams) per day of fluorides and bromides from water + toothpaste + food sources. Has the net effect of pushing out iodine, as fluoride and bromide dominate. Yet the body has to absorb them, so once it's maxed-out the organs including the brain, it starts putting on weight as fat. Even the face gets puffy. Since I started taking iodine solution, almost immediately i had the clear feeling it was like coming out of a coma after 10 years. My weight has dropped off me, my thinking is clearer - and I have a couple of brain injuries from childhood!, a major persistent depression lifted some more (I had done other things to help but this one in particular was a dynamic difference) and other things are working too which weren't. A number of my relatives have blood sugar problems and other conditions including psychiatric; I have no such issues although my day-to-day functioning is impaired due to the brain injury and the years of being poisoned living on the states have set me back a bit. I'm catching up as best I can. I left years ago, and it wasn't until I'd been gone for several years and eating completely different food and non-fluoridated water with less environmental bromide sources, that things started to turn around. The big turn around was the iodine solution though, and since then I've known people who have experienced a turn-around while still being on the states, and continue to be exposed to large amounts of it. This recent call to reduce fluoride: it needs to be eliminated. It's only ever been a product of the alcoa aluminum manufacturing: after WW2, alcoa operators had been subsidised to produce during the war, and had a lot of the hydrofluorosilic acid lying around in tanks which was going to cost a lot to dispose of properly. Enter the now-famous propaganda minister, edward bernays, nephew of sigmond fraud. He opened the industry called 'PR', public relations - before then it was called by it's correct name: propaganda. Although he knew it needed a new name which people wouldn't reject. He got people to eat bacon every morning because he got doctors to recommend it because his and his Fed bankers' buddies ran the AMA. He got women to smoke, called them 'liberty torches' or some such b.s. And if you replace bacon with fluoride, and doctors with dentists, you get the fluoride campaign he was instrumental on - yes, that was also one of his propaganda stunts. That's a quote from him in the 1980's when he admits it.
Hey Fluttersteke, I can see from this post and from a few of your other posts of yours that I have read that you are a really warm, kind and open minded person. It is amazing how often people like yourself are hit with issues such as this. I have been through it myself and managed to get through it but am quickly slipping back into in also. Reflecting on how I got through it the first time, I really needed to change everything. To the point that I moved country. It seems that change was only temporary but it was a good starting point at the time. Maybe focus on things you can do. Don't rush things but think of this time as a period where you can learn more about yourself which may help shift the focus off of how you have been feeling lately. Believe me, I know that is much easier said than done. If you feel like venting feel free to PM me. I'm not good at much but I am a pretty good listener.