I've tried several times to quiet all this shit with ending up right back on them. The last time I quit I walked away from a methadone clinic and went cold turkey for 3 weeks and started doing roxis, opana and methodone pills all over again. How stupid am I? Methadone withdrawals sucked ass but I made it thru the worst of it and I went back because I sometimes feel like I will never get my energy back without pills. So that's my question when do u get your energy back and become "normal" again? I like doing pills because they get me going, I don't really feel they get me high but they sure get me 100 miles per hour. I guess that could be considered high. Does anybody else ever feel like energyless forever? Thanks for any insight.
Idk if this is the answer you are looking for...but maybe try suboxone instead of methadone....Its alot harder to relapse and it gets you used to the sober lifestyle needed for recovery...make sure you being active and not waiting for energy to all the sudden appear...you have to work for it. Im not saying its easy i deal with the same exact problem. I hope you find the help you need.
I have done this, gone through heroin withdraws fully only to go right back to it a week or two later, and it was always for the same reason, i didn't feel like i could function without it. The energy part always came from me getting depressed, I knew opiates were going to kill me but i didn't want to live without them, that was heavy on my mind any time i was "sober". If i did opiates i would instantly feel better, why? Because i didn't have to worry, or didn't feel the need to, emotionally numb. So once i was high again life was great(not really, but it seemed to be) and i had all the energy in the world, cause when i was high nothing bothered me. One thing i found beneficial it getting rid of this depression that will cause you to not want to do anything at all without your opiates. Exercise. It may sound cliche, but exercise and taking vitamins and eating healthy, its a great way to get your body and soul out of a funk. It makes you feel good about yourself, ahhh, endorphins. Just get up and do some push-ups, pull-ups run/jog a bit, just do a little everyday at the begining of your day, its works great. How i got off opiates was easy, suboxone, but how i managed to finally stay off is quite a long story, but it basically came from psychedelic use and then finding things i liked about myself and life. There are far better things to do then waste away and spend your time on opiates, cause it will eventually lead you to one thing. Also i don't recommend AA or NA at all to anyone, nor do i recommend long term suboxone programs, but it doesn't mean it might not work for you.
So is suboxone affordable for someone without insurance? Tell me a little bout this stuff. Thanks I will try exercising. I'll try about anything just don't wanna end back at the methadone clinic. Thanks everyone.
I also have struggled with this problem for the past 4 years... And yes, the last thing you or I want to do is end up back at the Methadone clinic... There game is complacency and that's how they make their $$$. This past year I've struggled with Suboxone... Long term... this whole year... Stupid I know... But I can't sleep or get through the day without it. Recently I cut down my Subs slowly down to just taking slivers of it, once in the morning and once at night... Occasionally I have backtracked and taken Oxy's but it hasn't been that bad really. My main issue is when I try to sleep it feels like the muscles around my shoulders and upper back and literally on fire and trying to escape from my body. Kava Kava has helped, but it tastes like shit. If I wake up in the middle of the night I drink a decent amount mixed with whatever drink I have... and am able to go back to sleep for a few hours. I take vitamins and supplements for energy. Exercise of course works wonders, especially push ups because it works the muscles where my pain is centered. This is day 3 for me without Suboxone and last night I fucked up and took too much MDPV, now I feel even worse. And have my friend currently on the phone trying to get blues... but you know when you really need them there never there. I must say I've made progress though... But one stupid decision can put you right back where you were. Good luck! And if you find anything else that works PLEASE LET ME KNOW!
Well here the methadone clinic will give you suboxone for 10 dollars everyday, methadone is 6 with our without insurance. Check your methadone clinic and hope they have it. Suboxone is not cheap, there are "detox" doctors around here. (I live in Delaware its like 30 minutes south of philly and the Heroin problem around here is un-real) and they charge 600 for a weeks detox. <--- insane! I have a friend that gets suboxone from a normal Dr. although not all Dr. will/can prescribe it. He pays 200 for 60 8mg pills. this is WAY more then you need to detox. When you have had enough of the BS you will want to stop, stopping is easy, staying that way, not so much. Best advice, think about where that one 80 could have you in a couple months before you do it.
IMO you should give yourself a chance without the suboxone, if you can. All these symptoms unless you have always had them will go away. The best thing to do is not in medicines like suboxone and methadone, suboxone is great for detox, but i don't think its good for long term use. Its going to suck for awhile, but you gotta let your body get readjusted to not having opiates, wether partial or full agonists is your body. The best thing will come from within, from you, not medicine.
Your probably right but I have been dependent on one form of opiates or another for 4 years and have been on suboxone for a year... Sometimes I want to pull out all my beautiful hair.
its tough stopping and staying stopped for any length of time. its not impossible tho, you have to kind of change your whole day around. start waking up early maybe, make some tea, working out might be a stretch for the first week tho, considering your probably going to be incredibly unmotivated. worth a shot tho! getting off opiates is different for everyone, it just takes awhile to get back to that "normal" you speak of. Give it time, be patient.
