Really bad dreams, i wish would just go away...

It seems i never go a week without dreaming these two things, and i always wake up crying or shaking...I don't know how to deal with it.


Dream 1: It starts off (usually) with my being rushed to the hospital because i tried to kill myself, my friend is there with me, and i start to tear at my eyes, he tells me to stop and tries to stop me but it doesn't work, but even though i tore my eyes out i could still see (and i don't want to see). I feel very uneasy, but at the same time, comfortable with the fact that my friend is with me.

Than he ends up leading me to a dark room which turns out to be a lab, and he doesn't speak and just leads me to a tube and in the tube is a baby, the baby opens it's eyes and says "i'm not you" I usually feel relieved when the baby says that it isn't me but still i wake up crying.


Dream 2: Starts off back when i was in foster care, one of the worst foster homes i was in, and i'm looking for the dog because he was my only friend, and i can't find him, so i keep running and running looking for him and i just can't( i feel really really scared at this point almost lost) i usually give up and than an old friend from the foster home starts to read me a story, but than he disappears, and i'm scared again, and can't find him(at this point in my dream i am freaking out), then the same friend from dream the dream 1 appears just looks at me and smiles and takes my hand, and leaves part of me behind (i'm not really sure how to explain this, when he takes my hand, one me steps out of the other) and he starts to lead me out, but the me that's being left behind is still scared and is still freaking out,But the other me is feeling okay and it's usually around this point that i wake up...

 

Man up. Don't be scared. Embrace the fear bra...

 

Hi Adjecyca

try and take the dreams as a chance to become more aware and heal yourself, and just work with them and realize the potential, and see what you already see ... even if you don't know how to deal with it.

Maybe you want to start a dream journal and write down the dreams in each little detail you remember, or make sketches. Imagine you are all parts of the dream even those which are not 'you'. Make a role play out of it and go through from all the different perspectives and watch how things change. The dreams will change too ... yet for now they seem to patiently point out where to go in order to find what is lost. Your experience is also your potential. That which seems lost is your hidden treasure. In the end you become more whole, and also with each step.

So the exit is not to go around, but to go through whatever presents itself and embrace in full acceptance. The tears help you in the process of healing. Trust may not seem easy always but just know you're not alone. The dreamer inside you is your guide here.

My father used to tease us as kids. He showed us a little tool to squeeze with the hand yet didn't tell what it was good for. It seemed foolish yet he said it is a surprise and we will find out on our own. Later we discovered it was a muscle trainer. It's like with the dreams. When you don't know what they are good for, let them show you the way. It is all about trust.

Just some thoughts (well actually a lot of rambling) ... wishing you well

 

You've gone through hard times in the past and you're having trouble moving forward and putting the past behind you. Your childhood was bad but it's over, so you feel relieved when the baby tells you it's not you. This is probably you from the past, but the past is over. It would be relevant to know whether or not you've actually attempted suicide in real life but you didn't mention that. Your problem maybe be that you are not addressing these issues in real life and that's why you have these dreams, that's also why you don't want to see, because you're refusing to address certain issues. Your ways of coping with the past are unhealthy, and you are probably in denial. Your dreams also suggest that friends can help you cope, but maybe you don't have a good enough support system. You might want to see a therapist. The hospital suggests that you need urgent attention. You might stop having these dreams if you make more of an effort in your waking life to sort through your issues and the problems from your past.

But this is just my take on this and I don't really know. I noticed no one else offered interpretations so I came up with some ideas.