need to unload

I just need to unload all of my thought somewhere. This will probably be a long post so I really don't expect anyone to read the whole thing or bother to respond.

my parents are on the verge of divorce. this happens to so many families that I feel like i have no right to be sad about it. I love my dad and know that what he's doing makes him happy, but I wish what made him happy didn't make my mom cry. I wish she could find herself and her dreams. I wish he cared more. I wish my mom had some friends so she didn't have to call me at work to tell me she's so lonely she could die.

my relationship of 2 years is so screwed up. I know what the logical thing to do is. But I DO love him. and I don't want to be alone. I'd rather be unhappy sometimes than be alone. I hate myself for that. I wish I was stronger. I wish I knew how to fix things. I wish I had a guy that loved me and cared about me. I wish I had an older guy who knew what he wanted and was reasonable instead of being with young guys who THINK they know what they want and change their mind later on down the road. I wish I wasn't a weak person and didn't have to take this guy back. I wish I could just fall out of love with him. I wish that all of the great experiences I had weren't ALL with him.

I want to move. I'm stuck in a dead ass town with no oppurtunity for me. I have no friends here, no family. I have a job and that is it.

I wish I had stayed in school and finished. But I travelled when I dropped out and had some great experiances so I'm glad I didn't miss out, but I really wish I could go somewhere and make something of myself

I wish I had gone out with a cool guy I know when I had the chance. Now he's married to a bitch and he's so whipped he's not even the same person anymore.

I wish my past didn't haunt me. I don't want to be that girl who is afraid, and sad, and angry. I want to run away from it all and find new people who don't know me or anything that happened to me and I could forget all about it.

I wish I had never started cutting. I haven't in so long, but the thought is always there because I still haven't found a stress reliever that is as effective. I want the pain to go away and I don't know how to get rid of it. I want to kick this deppression that I have had since middle school. Therapists, doctors, medication- I've tried it all and it never works. I'm never happy.

I want to stop crying myself to sleep. I want to find myself away from all the stress and pain I live with everyday, but I just can't escape.

I want to have friends. I want to forget about how all of mine left me when I needed them the most. I want to trust people and let them in

I want the world to stop all the hate. But there's nothing I can do about it.

I wish my bosses weren't father and daughter. I wish they didn't fight all the time and put me in the middle. I wish they would run this company right and stop the lying and deception.

I wish I had more than my cat to keep me company at home.

I wish the guy friends I have liked me for me, not just because I'm alone now and they want to get in my pants.

I wish I were prettier. I wish I didn't care but I do. I want to be thin with big boobs and nice skin and white straight teeth and a pretty smile. I wish I could turn heads.

I wish I could rid of all these thoughts and be the person I just KNOW is insided of me. I wish I could find her and bring her out.

 

Shut-up fatass!

 

your not alone gurl.

 

If I have to read through one more fucking sob story, I'm gona end it all.

 

omg...Someone else post a sob-story so that Bug man will go away permanently! And halloweenriot, Shut the hell up....You didn't have to read it or respond...That was just fucking rude...

Holly

 

The problem is that before I take myself I will take out anyone within the range of a 6" barrell so my advice would be to shut the fuck up and stay out of my way! Love, Bogs

 

your mother giving birth to you is a sob story in itself

 

try it...

Holly
I know the ancient art of Fat-girl-will-sit-on-you

 

I don't bitch slap my mom so it can't be as much as a sob story as yours.

 

Headymoechick go and get a kitten, register to go back to school, find a therapist if need be, and find a hobby to occupy your mind. You aren't alone unless you allow yourself to feel alone. Find a new job as well. Do what you need to do.

 

oh bogsy, bogsy..tisk tisk tisk...Your asshole is going to hurt in a little bit if you dont shut the fuck up...

 

Is the strap-on gona be taken out soon or something?

 

i agree with hiro, gurl..if your not happy with something and you have the power to change it then you need to do that. you got any friends or family in other cities? go stay with them for a while and try to find a job there. hang out at places appropriate to the kind of people you wanna meet, ex....you like to party and dance and drink? go to a club and you'll meet people into the samethings....you more into nature and sports go to a park or a gym or join a rock climbing club.

its alright to be miserable about stuff but you have to earn the right to stay miserable, 'if something is bothering you and you don't do anything about it then you have no right to complain', so if your not happy with your life then you need to do something about that.

 

and i thought what i said was pretty lame...

 

Well said.

 

Lookie what I got for a PM by someone named Crimson:



cant stand you

I think you are really imature and dont belong on hipforums.... you mock other peoples views and just enjoy in annoying people... just leave and this whole place will be a lot better without you..
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Halloweenriot, I do sign rep when I leave it...I didn't give you any bad rep...I don't usually GIVE bad rep...Unlike you

I didn't neg rep you, and I didn't appreciate you neg repping me....

Holly
One pissed-off fat chick

PS...The blimp pic really wasn't necessary, was it?

 

aww bogsy has a fan..

 

That's not going to stop you.