These comments will seem disjointed because I'm trying to say several things at once, just writing my thoughts while coming down from this mountain: Coming down from 20x as I type. I just had an understanding of what it means to wake up in a meditative sense. I saw a documentary on Buddha last night and I have been thinking about this. I was amazed to realize that he was simply a man who woke up, but a man like myself just the same. If I begin to look at things or spend any time concentrating on anything phyisical, I can "trip" out. I get that this is a waste of time. If I silence my thoughts and just observe, I'm seeing life from a great height. One can waste their time in "spaces" that have no real meaning and "trip". Very unuseful. It's all familiar and I live in it, I just don't pay attention in my day to day life. I started out in my spare room of my home where I smoked and I quickly felt stupid as if I were hiding. This is my home. I went out and sat in the living room with my wife while she is watching tv. I got a peek at what enlightenment might mean... I'll write more when I return to Mt. Salvia.
