Anyone get the feeling that everything is a dream? I have been getting thing feeling since my "bad trip" which was about 2 months ago. I plan on writing a trip report on it, i have started several times but its quite hard to find the words to explain what happened.
I'm actually watching Inception now. True story. Not the film, the fact I am watching the film. It could be true, though. If it were, I'd hope we were not in my dream...because this dream sucks most of the time.
because I'm acting of my own free will, irrelevant to what you are doing? Watch this, a 'dream' is an idea. doesn't matter how you label life. You can mindfuck the mindfuck. I suggest you just live your 'dream' or 'life' however you healthily see fit. I gurantee you this 'dream' of yours is going to last approximately 75-80 years as well so don't waste it.
It depends on what amount of "realness" you ascribe to the imagination. Are illusions any less real? I'm still holding out on the possiblity that I'm an amnesic god, that I'm the center of the universe and your all manifestations of me!
True.. It's just hard to come to accept that whatever this is.. thats what it is.. and there isn't anything I can do about it. I find myself getting into deep thought about how it could be possible that any second I could snap out of "it" and wake up from the last time I went to bed tripping.
There is soo many things you can do, but it is up to you to decide what you are actualy going to do, if anything.
That "in a dream" feeling can be depersonlization or derealization. I used to get it real bad on L and stilll do when I smoke. It's a mild dissociative state that can be anxiety based.
Its all about personal liking what can be done, what makes you feel alive. Good thing is that you stopped dosing, thats first thing you need to do, so you can get back to normal day to day life. If your day to day life is like dream, that means that you are not doing anything witch will give you that thrill of beeing alive. Personaly, I would turn to sports, for example, gather bunch of people and make Saturday or Sunday soccer day, play once a week a game of soccer or whatever sport you like (basketball, volleyball....) Go play paintball, or do some adrenaline thrills like roller coaster, power boat drive. You can also go travel somewhere you never been. But, what is the most important, give love to people, to anybody, those you know and those you met first time. Give love unconditionaly, thats the only way it comes back stronger. Love is the only thing in the world that more you spend it, more you have it. And thats what gives this life that beauty. If you have a partner, organize things to surprise her, to make her happy, just like that, with no special reason. If you don't have parter, do it for a friend, anybody. Think what can make somebody happy and do it for them, don't be sorry for money or time invested, just do it man. Don't go to sleep in the evening before you made at least three people smile that day, and before you go to bed, look at yourself in the mirror and think what you can do tomorrow to make this place better for at least one person. Go plant a plant in the woods every week, try help somebody in public transport even if they didn't ask, give your seat to somebody who needs it more than you. I can go like this forever, but its up to you to think about anything that will make you proud of who you are. And when you have that feeling about your self, you are not afraid to give yourself to others, and seeing them at least smiling will give you that beautiful feeling of beeing alive witch make huge difference from just a dream. Anyway, whatever you choose to do I send you all my love and compashion and wish you find those little things witch make this life so great.
