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Well I'm not sure If this is the right forum or whatever for this, but I'm really losing sleep over this issue and need to get it off of my chest. When I was about thirteen I started snorting meth..and well, I can't stop thinking about it even though I've been clean for a few months. At first I was just snorting it every few months, but as I got older my "habit" turned into an addiction. At around fourteen I realized that the high lasted much longer if I smoked or injected it and that's when the trouble started. By the time I was sixteen I was doing meth every day, and had even resorted to stealing and begging on the streets to get more money to get high. Needless to say I ended up being homeless for almost two years, and I lost alot of good friends to my addiction. I got into an alternative school, got my high school diploma, and moved to the other side of the state. The first few days were hell, but I got over the worst of it (or so I thought) and enrolled myself into college. At this point I realized that dope had ruined my life, but even then every time I would go back to my hometown to visit I would end up falling back into the same old crowd, and would spend all of my money/time getting high. The reason why I am writing this is because I want to know if any of you out there have had a problem like mine, and how did you cope with it? Every time I'm alone I start thinking about how badly I want to get high, and sometimes everyday household items (anything with a chemical smell) will smell exactly like meth and that's all I can think about for hours. I know that at this point (It's been three months since the last time I got high) I have no physical addiction anymore, but it seems like my own mind is turning against me. So if you're reading this do you know anything that may help? Preferably besides rehab or other drugs.

 

I would love to see your before meth and after meth pictures..i heard your teeth all fall out...did your teeth fall out?.


does ridicule help?

 

................... how kind

 

Don't hang with the same crowds that's the first rule of thumb. Move on with your life. Those friends will be doing the same thing in 10 years when you can have a degree, a life, possibly a family. Try smoking pot, it's way better than smoking meth.

If you do decide to move on with your life and take it into your own hands rather than falling for the same thing over and over, it will progressively become easier for you and you will someday look back at how stupid it was how you spent your time and frustration.

Meth is strong, it's terrible, and leads to all the wrong places without a doubt.

I hope you find it in yourself to move on, find some new friends, share your story, the universe will guide your way if you allow it..

:sunny:

 

and your comment helps how?it is a COMBINATION of many things that cause a person to quit meth...including ridicule...y'all can hug him and tell him its all good...i will stick to telling him he is worst kind of stupid possible and he is NOT allowed in my home EVER.....some bridges just cant be rebuilt..reason being that there is no equal good to match the evil this stupid fuck inflicted on the people that loved him..he really fucked things up and will likely never get completely better[or redeemed]

 

Never met an "Epic Douchebag" that can walk on water before. Some people just get a zing of pleasure by being mean and trying to hurt people or get a reaction. It is old and tiresome, especially in those over 9 years of age.

It would be nice if we could try to make some FORWARD progress, individually, locally, nationally, internationally and globally. One way to begin this is to try to help when someone reaches out for help. It is called humanism.

 

you made 6000 posts on drug forum, and you are attacking ex addict,

what are you, some old shit that has fried his brains because of to many drugs that now tells other people they are shit or what

also ridicule doesn't help but can do opposite

 

Just realize brotha...there's always options. Its up to you. Keep positive. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger. Realize your goal and take it mane...

 

The two keys in my limited experience (though my husband is an ex meth-head) are mileau change (never visit the old neighborhoods/friends, throw out things that give you reminder smells, keep making changes) and time.

Do NOT give up hope. You are on a good, healing path and there will come a day where you will be able to say that drugs ruined part of your life but that you have reclaimed the rest.

Peace & Love

 

Mickey Meth

 

now you are just trolling get the fuck out

 

go suck a bag of dicks ya sack of shit

OP- maybe considering getting scripted adderall XR as a way to diminish the urges, just how a heroin addict would use methadone. only danger might be that the adderall buzz might make you wanna fully relapse, who knows, it's probably worth trying.

 

I am very familiar with this scenario.
I too was introduced to Shards when I was 13. It was light use in the beginning but but by the time I was 16 I was an addict. I quit using after a long stint in a group home but at 18 I was using it again and heavily.

I damaged a lot of relationships, lost friends, ended up homeless in two different major cities, did jail time, and set my ex boyfriend's things on fire outside of a hotel room door. It is not an easy thing to talk about and there are certainly a lot of people who instantly judge you when you admit that you've ever even had a problem with this drug. I hope for your sake that this is it, you've reached rock bottom and you're ready to quit. You want to quit for you.

Urges will come and go. Depression and strong sense that you have had your soul sucked out of you will slowly pass as well.

I strongly suggest your turn to herbs and supplements. OF course some kind of daily vitamins. Something for the brain - St John Wort maybe... Ginkgo Biloba... Kava Kava to calm the nerves... Just to name a few. They've helped me through meth, other drugs, and everyday life. Marijuana is also a great tool. I have been clean from Meth for over 7 years. Thank god I was never a thief, I have been able to mend most of the damaged relationships, that fell mainly due from my erratic behavior and outright desertion while on the drug.

Now I barely ever think about it... Though I'm sure my eyes light up if someone mentions it in passing, I have no real cravings and maybe once in every few months I use adderall if the craving are strong or for sexual stimulation. Just know this will pass! There is hope to completely remove yourself from the hell that is Meth. Feel free to PM anytime if you stick around here.