Should I even dose again?

i think i'm an introvert too. but i'm lucky enough to have a few good friends, and a great fiance. most people can rely on their families as well.

 

imo it just sounds like you are more sensitive and perceptive to things than most people are. that isn't a bad thing, it is a good thing!

we are all the same, but we are all still on different pathways and different roads trickling down from the same source. so even though we are inherently connected, it doesn't mean that you can share that with everyone, because some people just simply aren't at the same place that you are. this can make it especially more difficult for the people that actually ARE awake to the greater picture because once you attain a certain truth, it is hard to let go of it. honestly, it shouldn't be let go of.

but when it comes down to it, someone could have reached final enlightenment, but they still would require the most fundamental of human needs. that is to love, and to be loved. in my opinion, someone could sit in perfect meditation all day and reach perfect serenity within themselves, but it still needs to be reflected onto the world. openess isn't always the answer.

you need to be strong within yourself, in order to find a niche within life that you can breathe into. you can't expect people to love you perfectly, because no one can love perfectly. we all fall short. be aware of how you affect people, be sensitive to where they are, and learn how to love yourself. we all need to be loved, but in the end what is going to make the greatest difference is learning how to love others. this could extend from the smallest acts of kindness to the most collosal acts of servitude. but many people are just are so caught up in their own world that they may not be interested in the slightest in understanding what your world is like, no matter what you do for them. when this happens, you can't get offended. it may just be that they are on a totally different path from you, two worlds can only collide as a matter of free will. you need patience and understanding, as well as humility to be able to face yourself if you are wrong.

i get mad amounts of shit from all my friends for being as out there as i am, but they still love me. although when i actually do end up spending time with people that share the same views as me, it's just all that much more glorious. :cheers2:

"I know one day, all our scars will disappear, like the stars at dawn
and all of our pain, will fade away when morning comes
and on that day when we look backwards we will see, that everything is changed
and all of our trials, will be as milestones on the way

and as long as we live, every scar is a bridge to someone's broken heart
and there's no greater love, than that one shed his blood for his friends

on that day all of the scales will swing to set, all the wrongs to right
all of our tears, and all of our fears will take to flight
but until then all of our scars will still remain, but we've learned that if we'll
open the wounds, and share them then soon they start to heal

as long as we live, every scar is a bridge to someone's broken heart
and there's no greater love, than that one shed his blood for his friends

we must see that every scar is a bridge, and as long as we live
we must open up these wounds
when some one stands in your shoes and will shed his own blood
there's no greater love. we must open up our wounds"

- thrice, for miles.

 

I realize you're not saying your situation is the same as FreshDacre's. He had a break and you're describing an ongoing problem with some peaks and valleys and recent intensification. But it's worth recalling where FD turned for help (first to psychiatry and later to this forum). In both cases he received help and support.

 

Thanks Desos.... good advice.

 

i think this is some of the best advice i have seen. i am also young and did go along with the all at once mentality with out realizing. i have stopped everything now for about 2/3 months and only coming to the end of my anxiety and depressive thoughts. maybe that i was weak minded but i didn't do as much as some but i defiantly had some emotion and phsicological problems from smoking weed everyday at such a young age.

 

Sounds like it's time to join the Taliban bro. It only gets worse as the ennui tears your hopes for change and sense of purpose apart. At least if bust out a suicide mission, you can shoot up a fat bag before you roll out

 

r o fucking f l

geeze thanks for the advice mang!!!

 

Did you know those bulls that attacked Mumbai in 2008 were on Cocaine and LSD? Let that one sink in for a moment...

 

Little thing called being in touch with OM.

 

u know what ahym sayn bro.
hows your father?

 

What I learned (I had a thread like this too hah):

Everyone's just thinking too much, and needs to stop beleiving they know what's going on (ESPECIALLY if they are going by the overageratting, victim-searching often negative suggestions of ones ego).

Fact is, everyone else is far too busy doing the same to notice any of your actual flaws. And who's to say who's version of reality is even true? In the end it's all just an opinion/thought, transparent and as fabricated as the next reality changing thought.

These types reminders work for me.

The OP, looked up your pics and you look normal/fine. Lay off dat ego-trip maaaign.

 

Eh whatever, I don't think you looking at my pics and making your own assessment is really a hard look into my "reality", especially as the looks are only a small part of my own relative reality, or as you so politely and accurate to the word, "ego trip". Also despite the seemingly inherent but unrecognized truth of it all just being an after thought, and that is always a helpful essence to being, it is not an answer except in death. Even though life is Maya, or illusion, both aspects of Atman are attached parts of living and thinking. And in that it is impossible for you to stand before everyone and say they are just thinking too much. I think actually we have already thought too much too early on to just tell someone to lay off an ego-trip. Some people are too often in the wrong place at the wrong time because the after thought has become the fore thought. Some issues require environmental changes.

You are correct about the moment at hand, and it's such an easy determination in one light because it is a deeply seeded spiritual knowing. I even went through a phase in my life, where all of life was an excess in thinking, and others sadnesses, irritations, and compulsions were just them thinking too much crap. How empathetic an outlook and dissonance creating, because as I found out you don't rid yourself of atman but just how you handle it. You are given something for life and your job to use it correctly. Simply you aren't me, you haven't had my exact experiences, you haven't been in the exact situations, you haven't had the exact opportunities, you haven't been denied the exact opportunities... Not that we couldn't have had similar experiences, still you have your own Atman to handle.

My issue is my own inability to handle what I've been handed, and it's been 20 years, but it's been a slow procession into new challenges. I think what you really meant to say is I should change my attitude...

I too believe in the power of intention
And no you can't know let alone notice someone's true flaws when you don't know them.

 

I knew this was ripe for a reply when this had made it back to the the recent threads, and I knew something in me was going to budged. Hows that for reality changing thought........

But what gets me is the use of some of my own believed ideas and experiences in such a way, that is ignorant of my life, at the same time as it is true about mind.

Since I already set my mind to getting out of it, the day I get to change the environment, will be an opportunity for experiencing all that I truly needed to experience....

Not bullshit that I didn't want to in the first place. Wrong place wrong time, that's all....

I'm still just waiting for the right person in the equation

 

I won't challenge your "intelligent being" or "understanding of atman and maya" or whatev, but let's make it simple -- a lot of this is simply about girls and fitting in in general, and overly facbricated and unproven thoughts that others are thinking negative about you.

It's an easy hole to fall into, but one ultimately created and peddled further into manifesting simply by our attitudes -- It's as real or fake as you want it to be.
The rest of the stuff is your philosophy, and I dare not intrude.

Live long, prosper, enjoy.

 

Well obviously our philosophy is shared, I don't know why you make it seem otherwise. I agreed you are correct in the matter of the mind in the moment. And you can't necessarily make it simple, but you can remove the thought as you suggest. But I think it is wrong for you to know if anything I said is overly fabricated and unproven. It may not be the matter of the absolute self but there are patterned sociological behaviors that can't be denied as easily as you suggest....

I didn't really want to get into details in responding because I've been doing quite well recently despite what you may have thought about my own thoughts....
But it's not even in my self interest that I attest to observed social relations and situations...and I just love how you insist on the words fabricated and unproven.
There are questions about the life I have so far lived, that need to be answered and accepted to incite real change or else, cycles just repeat.

I used to offer the same input to people, but It became aware it was pretentious, as you further suggest by further simplifying it. Its like to you all you're seeing in my writing is: "I AM A VICTIM, BELIEVE ME"
It's not even about what others think of me, it's about accepting nature.

I'm not sure you know what kind of hole it is that it was so easy for me to fall in, because it is not just simply about girls and fitting in. It has a lot to do with my own introversion, psychological state, psychedelic experiences, and cognitive dissonance entirely separate of any social issues being addressed. I am not as negatively self conscious as you make me seem. I pay attention, and regulate my manifesting thoughts on a moment to moment basis, and in certain situations I know I have to settle my mind down.

As far as the quotations of "intelligent being" or "understanding of atman and maya" I'm not sure where you got those quotes. I just think that if you want to use a Buddhist notion the complexity of the Buddhist understanding of self must be considered. But that's how the Eastern influenced New Age ideas tend to be, just a simple notion to make all the hipsters feel good about themselves.

 

You know what, I'm sorry for being so rejecting of your advice. I don't necessarily reject the truth of it, but the shortsightedness of it. It's all something I was very much a dear holder of, I've been there, and I know it's not a complete answer. I am sorry especially because there are a lot of complaints in my original postings especially about other people, but if you read everything in entirety you can find my taking responsibility for my own thoughts and projections, because I know oh so well exactly what you're talking about. Whatever. I would kind of like to drop this, I don't know who I think I am being so rejecting of advice when I willingly shared my thoughts. Truth is, I've been doing just fine recently.

 

Same here. Gonna lay off the 'give advice' pipe myself. Good lux.

 

:hurray: