I always have been. I enjoy it though, it distinguishes me from most people. It shapes my thoughts, it influences my behavior, my interaction with the world around me and the people that inhabit it. The only problem is, that I am terribly misunderstood. I have been to several counselors, they all hear what I have to say, and when summarizing they get it all wrong. When I ask my friends serious questions, they have either no idea what I am talking about or try to relate, but they don't understand! It is so frustrating, and as a consequence my relationships with people suffer. If I want to have a stimulating conversation, I have to make one up in my head, and I do this all the time, hosting discussions in my head. My thoughts run rampant through my head, and for the most part I can never express them in ways people understand. I love who I am, and at the same time I hate it. Because it seems like this is the very reason I am terribly depressed. Is there anyone out there who feels like I do?
Hello!!!! My twin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahah imp: :rockon: :2thumbsup: Yes I totally understand how that is. Embrace your craziness man, don't feel handicapped because of it. I literally wanted to kill myself because of it. I never understood my own mind. Thing is, embrace it-only way to be sane, well, you know! I always have interviews in my head and I talk about myself. I have different ideas that not everyone understands. In fact, my own family would call my crazy. There is only one family member who probably wouldn't. Ill add you as a friend and someday we can have intelligent discussion?
i think i relate. i completely understand being alone and having my thoughts a love/hate thing, but i don't know what you qualify as crazy. like what kind of "crazy" things do you do and talk about? cuz you're probably just simply intelligent. i think an important thing for everyone though, is expression. it feeds your spirit, and everyone elses, so don't shut yourself out like i tend to do. even if it means going on the hipforums, writing blogs, making art (a lot of famous artists were batshit crazy), or whatever, just always express yourself in some way. and how old r u?
Rofl.... That must be why I tend to think I am an artist.... Even though im barely talented getting what the hell I want to put up to work out.
I've hosted conversations in my head before, and I've come to realize it's the other people in my head who are crazy, not me.
It's much easier to communicate when I type what I'm thinking. I take my time so all the jumbled thoughts can be organized.
i am crazy too. Also very introspective and interested in states of consciousness and "sanity." Seems to me the heart of my craziness is a fundamental inability to communicate my thoughts accurately to others. They never come out (verbally) they way they are organized in my head. Even listening to myself sometimes i wonder. It must be really wacky hearing it from the outside . . .
The only person that get me is my Superman action figure. He's my best friend and always keeps me on the straight N narrow
i have found this recently. i think its just as everyone said its being intelligent. and if u hand around with people not very down to earth or as open as you. i personally feel that im different or as you say, crazy. i pick up on things incredibly quickly for example, computer games, software, new sports or skills. its just the way i react, interact and focus your mind logically. as someone else said its very hard to put into words what you feeling or trying to explain. And yes it does get us very down and depressed some times. But if focus your mind you will get a lot more than some dumb person who's not with it. if you don't question things you will find everything easier but if you do you may answer some and gain intelligence but the once that can't be answered may trouble you, learning to let go in my state of mind WAS hard but have learnt my brain is amazing
