future..

So I was thinking about what I am afraid of? I know I am afraid of my decisions I will make. I was wondering what everyone else is afraid of? I finally realized the one thing I am afraid of is ... Uncertianty.

 

I am afraid of death. Im obsessed with it, not in a psycho way, just sort of expecting the unexpected and I cant wait for it to happen. Its just sort of a facination with me, it will be the answer to basicly the answer to life. Or it coul dbe nothing but dieing and nothing happening after it. Guess ill just have to wait a while to find out.

 

I don't really know what I'm afraid of. I don't like the fact that I'm getting old someday, but it doesn't really scare me. Losing people I love... I hate the idea, but I'm not really scared of that either. I'm not scared of death, coz there's nothing I can do to avoid it. Hmmm... Nope, I can't really think of anything. Sorry.

 

so.. if it was pointless to you.. then why did you read it and then reply to it?

 

I am afraid of losing control...of my life, of my sanity, of situations....I have to have control, or I feel like things aren't going to be ok.

Holly

 

Let's keep the future in the past where it belongs!

 

i'm just worried that i will worry then about the next moment and miss that moment like i am missing this one

 

Now you're worrying me, Marie.

 

im afraid of:

spiders
getting so old that i dont know who anyone is or what is going on
seeing a ghost when im alone
my grandma dieing
me dieing without ever having that strong life changing type of love