Please help me understand a most disturbing dream, TIA

I registered on the forum (I've been a member of many over the years) to post a VERY disturbing dream and to
get some feedback if possible. As always, Thanks In Advance.

I had a dream the night before last that scared me badly. It was as vivid as real life; more so if that's possible.

The short dream I had prior to this one beginning was at a mental ward or infirmary at a prison. I was looking
through a door window into a room where kids were being abused and screaming and very rough looking mean men were
cussing and throwing bottles and stuff. The atmosphere was not only hateful, but had a doomed feeling.

My lifelong best friend and I were out in a yard and I was operating a remote controlled lawn mower. Not really
sticking to a pattern, just running around and cutting up with it. In retrospect, he wasn't his normal chatty self
(like when he and I get together and can't talk fast enough to catch up on everything). He seemed contemplative in a
happy-sad kind of way.

My oldest daughter then made an appearance and she was upset about having been to my Dad's cottage but none of her friends
showed up. She showed me a new tattoo she got that was a Bible verse. I don't know which one (but I wish I could remember).
My wife then took me for my colonoscopy (which I have scheduled for next month in real life) and we were in the waiting
room and a patient walked by that looked just like an uncle of mine (he passed away 27 years ago). I didn't even
remember what he looked like until my dream; it WAS him. I didn't pay much attention because then the nurse called
me back. I kissed my wife and went back and the nurse and doctor were there with really pleasant smiles. (Knowing kind
of smiles). She said, "I need to get your vitals." Just about that time an orderly (candy striper?) walked by and I
looked up at her and it was my mom (She passed away over 5 years ago). I mean, it was her EXACTLY. Right down to the way
her front teeth were capped. She didn't acknowledge me and with an important air about her, she started walking down a hall.
I told the nurse,"That's my momma, I have to go see her." The nurse seemed a little reluctant to let me go because the
doctor was there. They still had that little smile, though. I caught up to momma but she only glanced at me and I knew I was
to follow her. As we walked down the hall it started dawning on me that she had come for me.

At the end of the hall We went through a door into a church were everyone I know and have known, alive or passed on, were there.
It was SO real! My Grandma and Grandaddy (many years passed on and missed very much still) were the first ones I passed by. They
were smiling. My Mother turned and went up an aisle one way and I kept going and went right to my wife. She was very pale and
trying hard to have a comforting smile on her face. She said, "Yes, Michael she's come for you and your legion." I grabbed her
and hugged her so tight if it had been real life, she'd probably have passed out. I told her, "I don't want to go, I want to
stay with you."

Then I woke up.

It was so real with that feeling that comes on to you as you realize things and things fall into place. Like when
I first realized momma was there to take me into the next life, I realized that something must go wrong during the
procedure. Also when the door opened and it was a church I actually swooned in the dream.

When I woke up I immediately woke my wife up and cried my eyes out. I don't know what eternity holds for me, but I want to spend it with her.

........................
Now that I think back on it after a day, I really believe it was more of a vision than a dream. It was THAT real.
I'm not a real religious person, but I truly understand the symbolism and overtones. The detail was EXACT in everyway.
People I've not even thought about in years and years were absolutely real. I'm not afraid of the colonoscopy next
month, I've been trough it every 4 years or so for the last 15 years or so (I get an occasional polyp). I just turned
50, so maybe my mortality has been in my subconscious.

I'm pretty shaken by it still. Any words of wisdom or anything would help me. I understand all parts of the dream except
for my wife's use of the term "Legion." That one's got me stumped.

 

Wow!! That is insanely vivid! I've had a few dreams about relatives that passed. The only explanation I can come up with is a sort of closure thing. I always wake up balling my eyes out but ultimately come to the conclusion that they were just letting me know that they love me and miss me as much as I miss them.

As far as the procedure going badly, I don't know man. Are you overly worried about it? Or at least before you had this dream? If you were then I would imagine it's just your subconscious working out your fears. Sort of "Well, at least you'll have all this to look forward to" type of thing. Obviously, you don't want anything to go wrong though.

If you weren't real worried about it, I would maybe hold off on it for a little while. Ya never know, and I'm the sort of person that pays close attention to what my dreams are telling me. Maybe you could do a little dream research? If you need help I have a pretty good book that I might be able to relay some info to you if you want.

Hope all is well!

 

TL;dr

 

^What does this mean?

 

"Too long, didn't(well, really, couldn't) read"

 

I guess "The Stand" by Stephen King is out. LOL J/K

 

For what it's worth, I'll offer my two cents on this. I'm a spiritual person, and I've always felt we all have 'legions' of spirits guiding us through life - yet they aren't really separate beings from us but more like parts of our psyche (at least, they make themselves a part of us) - so when we go, they come with us.

 

I wouldn't make too much of it and certainly don't take it literally. Bear in mind for a start that the perception or the "experience" of something being "real" is a seperate brain function. Any imagined image or belief will appear entirely real if it activates that function fully (hence hallucinations and delusions).

Dreams are a random rummaging through your emotional memory, probably important as a way of trying to resolve them. It matches them to similar previously experienced emotions and drags out images from memory that have an association with them. What you remember of the dream is a constructed narrative the literal detail of which is irrelevant. But as the images you remember from the dream are linked to similar emotions that you were "clearing", dreams are to a limited extent metaphoric or symbolic in relation to the emotions being cleared.

You only "remember" dreams if you are woken up, -if the emotions are rousing enough or if you are awoken by an external stimulus. (I put "remember" in "s because memory itself is reconstructive..)

 

WOW that makes perfect sense to me and when it's put that way I like it
and it makes me happy.

Thank you.