Real love

DAMN IT VIN Lol. sorry guys and girls.

 

i can't really answer because i'm not sure. i nearly fell in love with this girl but i didn't "allow" myself because she lived far away and didn't seem too interested. in fact, she got herself a boyfriend and didn't even bother to tell me. i heard it from her friends....

i also can't really see myself falling in love with anyone because i know a tonne of girls but i have no deep feelings for them (and i don't look at guys because i'm not gay).......maybe i'm just a machine.

 

Yes, I thought I was in love before. Which with my past relationships, I may very well have. Which to me there is a differnce between being and love and Loving someone. I beleive my heart fell out of love with them. The soul I am with now, I think I am truely in love with, a much deeper level. One that my heart can not part from. He has showed me how to find myself, with loving him. As I have found with what I had written in my journal several days earlier, I thought I would post it.

** Each Relationship you have with another person reflects the relationship you have with yourself

** We are the hero of our own story

** Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition

** Trust enables you to put your deepest feelings and fears in the palm of your partners hand, knowing they will be handled with care.

** Love isn't like a resevoir, you'll never drain it dry.
Its much more like a natural spring, the longer and farther it flows the stronger and deeper and clearer it becomes.

** We are always afraid to start something that we want to make very good, true, and serious.

** A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step

** Love is not what we become but what we already are.

** Courage is not the lack of fear but acting in spite of it.

** We can only learn to love by loving

** I know what love is, it is because of you

** No one has ever loved anyone the way everyone wants to be loved

** Until we learn which ever life lesson we're meant to at the time, self-acceptance, self-determination, self-discipline, self-esteem, self-forgiveness, self-interest, self-knowledge, self-respect, self-sufficiency, self-worth, our lessons will keep coming back to us.

** The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen nor touched, but are felt in the heart

** The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it.

** The heart has eyes which the brain knows nothing of
Here are some poems I wrote. You tell me if I am in love?

Last night I dreamed that I was in love with you. This morning I woke up and realized that I am in love with you. I am living my dreams between awakenings.

Alone we are two separate individuals trying to survive. Together we are strength and truth in a world of love.

Love is the only true freedom it let's us cast off our false exteriors and be our true selves.

Sometimes you don't say anything and I know exactly what you are thinking. Sometimes you see something beautiful and it is as if I see it too. Sometimes you touch something and its like I touch it too, when holding your hand. Sometimes you learn something interesting and by listening to you I learn it also. Always when you are happy, I am happy, because you are part of me. Our lives are intermingled with each other.

I want to wake him and say thank you, thank you for knowing me. I want to wake him and say thank you, thank you for understanding me. I want to wake him and say thank you, thank you for making me so happy. I want to wake him and say thank you, thank you for transforming me into an erotic delirium. But there he sleeps so quiet and peaceful. I'll just kiss him softly and thank him tomorrow.

Though we are very close to each other, we each have our own lives. We have our own goals, we are together always in our hearts but not necessary together. Always in our activities. A relationship is based on truth and freedom.

Where there is honesty there is understanding, where there is fairness, there is peace. Where there is sharing there is friendship. Where there is love their is fullfillment.

Your blue eyes play with each other, I join hands with you and our laughter is a echo of the songs of birds and our love in the sunlight as we melt into one.

Because our relationship is based on honesty and fairness there is no need to test each other. It is wonderful to find someone whom I don't need to play games with, and who lives up to everything I consider important, right and beautiful.

I'd go to the ends of the earth with you. Gaze out over the void together while the stars and moon looked down and the oceans poured out over the edge into nothingness. The coulds drifted away, forming spirals and silken waves to wash upon our feet. I just want to wrap you up in the night. A thousand tiny ribbons of silky inky darkness, binding you to me. I'll dip my hand in a jar full of stars and place each exquisitly over our body, and your hair and eyes shine brighter than all of them. We'll disolve into stardust and spread our selves over eternity together. I'll feed you dreams and fantasies. You'll touch the sky and wear the moon as ring around your lovely finger, all while resting in my arms.

Ache

My eyes long for yours.
I want to dive into the watery blue unknown enveloping your pupils
Run my fingers through the smooth liquid nectar of your gaze
Behold your gentle perfection
Respect your weaknesses
Drowning each
Worry
Fear and
Doubt
with
each wave
each current
each drop

Every drop

of the vast flowing elixer ocean of feelings I keep barely contained behind
each glance
When next I see you, I fear the barrier will dissolve, crumble
The torrent will surge forth
Wrapping
Embracing and
Lifting
Your strengths
Entangling them
Between
Through and
Around
My strengths
Fortifying them with
each touch
each whisper
each kiss

Every kiss

 

Thats beautiful TrippyHippy.Peace and love

 

"Who knows what the cosmos holds",,,,,,so very true Teepi.I knew,of all people you would understand.Sometimes I feel like shit about this,yet my heart guides me ever to Carie,my true love.For years my soul was tortured over this,as was hers.Yet we were always afraid of losing a great friendship.That,thankfully is no longer a problem.My heart sings with a happiness I've never known before.I have been blessed,as you and Larry have.Thank you for your wisdom and understanding dear Teepi.The feeling is mutual ;}> Peace and love to you and Larry.

 

Can't say I'm sure if I have or not... Perhaps I have, but it lasts no longer, so I'm not sure I'd call it true...

 

You'll know when it really happens to you bro.It will knock you for a loop.

 

Yes Homey I do understand and I am happy that you realize that regrets can hold nothing for us.
I think that taking a chance on love is never wrong. Sometimes it doesn't workout the way we would like, but love is, never in itself, wrong.
Its only the selfishness we attach to it that misleads.

And you are also right in what you said above, you will know when it is right.
It took me alot of years to come back to the place where I belonged, I went through some rough times, hard relationships, 2 kids, obesity, mental illness, a horrible sadness, then one day it all just opened up. I realized that I went into and through things for a reason, the reason may not be clear in the moment but the blessings started to become obvious.
I'm the one who held it in my hand, I could sit there and play the victim or I could take it all, gather strength from it, remember lessons that had been taught and become responsible for my own life. Being self-centered may be wrong, but being CENTERED is the way.

If you are out of balance within, you are out of balance without.
Life has a ripple effect, everything you do reaches out further than you could imagine, even little things that seem inconsequential at the moment reverbiate throughout space.
Look at a smile, you smile at a stranger as you hold the door open for them somewhere.
Do you know where that smile travels to after you deliver it??? You may forget it immediately, however the person you smile at may be having a horrible day and may have been in a hoorible mood and could have been on the way to bitch someone out because they screwed up and overcharged them on their last visit, but just now...that smile....now they may realize that people are human and mistakes are made and we should work together and love each other and now the man who would have been bitched out won't have to go into the bosses office and given a warning which could have pissed him off and caused him to use it as an excuse to drink a little too much and come home late and then the wife would have.....

haha see what I mean???
And thats just from a little smile and a kind act.

Thats what I mean about love on all levels, if we can extend ourselves in love then we are a blessing in ourselves.

I was only with Larry for about 5 months way back when, but it made such an impression on my life, I had to go and learn some tough lessons and so did he...for whatever reasons the cosmos held, but we did find each other again.
And the next chapter of our lives began......

So youngins, and not so youngins...do not harden your heart to love, just realize that if your love is not returned in the moment the way you would like, you have caused a ripple effect just by putting it out there and there is never anything wrong with that if it is done in pure love and not selfishness, you may be surprised what ends up coming back your way someday.

my heart sings for you,
teepi

 

yes i have but at the end she turned out to be a fucking bitch so im not bothered anymore

 

im not sure.. still thinking about it if i was.. i always believe that if it is really love, wouldnt i still be with that person now?

 

yes i've been in actual love once but mostly find myself being in lust withsomeone.

 

I've loved one person, I knew it when we first met. Everyone who saw me the next day knew it. We've been together for 18 years and I love her more now than ever. Every day our love seems to get stronger and stronger. It is hard to explain but some people my age will understand.

Mark

 

Yes, I really love someone. Tho, I only got those symptoms when it was more in the infatuation phase, before I could say I was truly in love. Then again, getting weak in the knees every time I saw him would get pretty old, considering that I live with him!

 

Yes And I Want My Mind Back! Aggggggggggggggggggh!

 

Sumbody Pleezzzz Just Reach Into My Chest And Pull My Friggin Heart Out!

 

Sure. Not in the last copule of years, though.

 

yeah, but then u realise u were just the underdog... I tend to fall in love too easily, and when it's over, i think "what happened" "what did i see in him"??. If you love someone else more than your self, it's an illusion, it's like you need somebody "better than you".

 

Well Im just going to drink, smoke, snort, and pop pills to numb myself. Thats the ONLY way to get through it I have discovered.

 

I'm not sure. I mean I've felt all those things, but I just always thought that finding love would be a more profound experience. Maybe I'm looking for to much.