feelin down, some thoughts

i have just been feeling really overwhelmed and anxious lately with all my schoolwork/enviroment/financial situation/ect. and ive been finding it very difficult to just be myself.

ive been dosing pretty constantly for about 3 years now, been slowing down on it alot this year. its shown me a lot of things, but probably the most important thing it has shown me is the fact that i have the greatest gift i could ever have, life. its shown me that i cant get caught up in these small everyday problems that come up, because compared to the big picture this is NOTHING. and when i dose its like DUH, but when your in sober life its so hard to remember how valuable our lives really are.

so when your not tripping (and i know most of you trip like 2-5 a year) or on drugs, what keeps you going when your feeling so down? what do you think about that gives you motivation? i just felt like i needed to write about it and was wondering what you guys thought

 

I get caught up in the little daily bullshit too, all the time. It's just the reality of my world, I can't be guru mystique 24/7. It's easy to come on these forums and be all wise and shit about abstract issues of self, but what about when that essay is due tomorrow and you haven't started, and you just had a fight with your friend, and you just lost some money? That shit is all real man, as real as the earth going around the sun. The illusion here is that you've tricked yourself into thinking that somehow only the amazing magic of an LSD peak is what matters . . . but it's not. Think about it, LSD has only existed for ~50 years. 50 years! What the fuck did homo sapiens do before that? Were we all just stupid closed-minded fools worrying about things that don't matter? Of course not. It all matters. It's all your life. Give attention to it. Honor the process. Live in the moment. If you're going to be anxious and pig headed about something, then be anxious and pig headed. Don't get anxious that you're anxious. that is the error.

zen master screams FUCK when he stubs his toe. Your petty feelings of dread are sacred and beautiful beyond words. See the trip that is life, live in the peak of here. LSD is a luxury, appreciate it for what it really is, a brand new chemical window into something wondrous that we are still struggling to link to the rest of the universe and may never.

This is why dosing too often is bad, you lose sight of the perspective, your forget what came first, what's what . . . LSD is a magic gift, not "the way it should be". There is no "way it should be", there is only the way it is.

 

^^^^^ Best post ever. i must meditate on these words vis-a-vis my heavy DMT use . . .

 

:iagree:

 

Mr. writer i love your posts.

 

hahahaha

 

Thats some real shit nigga.

 

So solid man. Some real truth right herrr.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHPOzQzk9Qo"]YouTube - Monty Python - Always Look on the Bright Side of Life

 

I get run down sometimes by everyday life, especially bc of the people that dont understand me, and do things that trigger my aspie side. But I have to say mr. writer, wrote it beautifully. and I try to live each day for what it is, an gift.

 

Just do what you can physically do. After that, fuck it, relax and enjoy your breathing life.
That's my advice.

 

aan gift for an hero!