currently tripping part 3

overall this is going quite easily. im almost dissapointed, i wasdefinetly looking to be challenged. im currently trying to feel out my psychology to find areas that would most likely produce a bad trip. all im finding though, is a quci kability to understand that part of myself. haha

looks like 300ug still isnt enough. i feel marvously adept (as a lsd user) at being able to TRY to make myself have a bad trip, but really just enjoying it as i watch my brain unfold. i love this understanding of myself. i feel like i have no facet from which to hide from. where is it? is my ego that strong?

if i think about this, i think i realize that this means that i have still too strong of an ego... if i dissolved it more i would be more aware.

this trip, i think i have found that i am an exceptionally caring person, and empathetic ( even when not tripping ) and i wonder if may to "protect my feelings" ive grown this huge logical outer shell, which removes emotion from situations to view them rationally...

if i broke that down, i may actually find something horrible... probably even more beautiful though, down there.

 

Why would you want to try to have a bad trip? Have you ever had one? IMHO LSD is very euphoric and hard to get an entire bad trip out of - possible though.

Have you tried DMT? That will test you in ways you cannot imagine.

 

sorry if this ranting doesnt make sense right now, but i know i am going to LOVE reading this when im sober

 

LOL! Fair enough! Carry on brother!

 

OD'ing on mushrooms have always given me bad trips, never fails!!!!

 

yeah, ive recently tried DMT, but only a little. u commented on the trip.

when i say "bad trip" i dont actually mean that i would want something BAD

i would be looking for something uncomforable, which i know would teach me something about myself. im a complex person at times, who is striving SO HARD to understand myself. i want a more complete understanding and through it hoepfully change the way ive run my life

i defeat myself in the stupid ways. im trying to find out why and how, so i can change that

 

to be honest, i like that im writing while tripping. hopefully it concretes some of this stuff in me for later

 

Kind of like how you're on LSD right now and trying to have a bad trip?

the secret : love

 

Perhaps the dissapointment of a lack of a challenge IS the challenge. Pinpoint and zero down on the dissapointment or even boredom that you might be feeling and use it as a catalyst to accept this moment the way it is. Tripping or not tripping.

 

brilliant. profound. yes.

 

i really am so cruel to myself thank you for helping me see some aspect of it so that i can relax

 

thank you

 

now when you feel like you are being bad to yourself, just remember it's because you've turned off the love. turn it back on, it's your right, it's your gift

 

Smoke some salvia and make sure to get the technique down and then come back to one of these longer lasting hallucinogens.

 

Yeah, salvia might give you what you're looking for. High dose mushrooms were also mentioned and they can produce the desired effect. i personally believe high dose 'shrooms plus DMT (i've done it twice) is a bit over the top.

i'm seeing a lot of reports about people learning a LOT about themselves and having to face some mistakes they've made and gaining insights, etc. on doses of 4-aco-DMT over 20 mgs.

 

you probably didn't have 300 ugs. if that's what the dude you got it from said, it's probably 150 max

 

150 is a good, heavy dose, short of weighing like 300 lbs, if they were real, solid micrograms.

 

My thoughts exactly. With 300ugs you would NOT have been online posting, certainly not as much as you were. Sellers often overstate the strength, either intentionally or just through ignorance.
300ugs is a potent dose and would have produced undeniable effects, much, much more so than conveyed by your posting.
Knowone is doubting what you think you took, just that it most likely wasn't as potent as you were told.

In the future just start one thread and if you feel like communicating more about/during that trip, just keep posting in that same thread rather than creating a new thread each time.
Doing that can be considered spamming and could lead to them being deleted.

Give it a day to digest, then if you feel write up a trip report about your experience.
:cheers2:

 

fair enough about the number of threads. also, yeah, it prob wasn't that close to 300ug. my estimate but i def didn't trip THAT hard.

 

you realize Albert Hofmann's first intentional dose of lsd at 250ug left him quite incapacitated in terror as his entire world transformed in front of him for hours . . . full immersive total sensorial +++ . . . so if you "didn't trip THAT hard" 300ug is probably like triple what it really was. considering your quality of dialogue and amount of posting i think 100ug is more like it, which is exactly the kind of dose that produces these sorts of personal, emotive trips. any higher and you're entering into lysergic om orgy.