AMAZING Guy-->PERFECT SEX!

You'll like section two even more if you read the exposition i think: I went to end the relationship with this guy that I had gotten involved with because I was just so confused about my feelings for guys. I had been only bi-curious up until the point that we kissed for the first time. And then I entered a shifting stage, and was just confused. We ended up making out, against certain inner feelings and concerns, and it felt so good. But i knew it had to go away.
I felt that we had to meet in person for me to end it, so I told him that. We met and started discussing, and he wanted to still be friends, but I told him that I couldn't because I was too attracted and therefore confused. We ended up walking and talking until four in the morning (we had met at around 11). By the end of it, I was so confused. It turns out that he's the most perfect person in the world. Literally flawless. I thought it might be the case, but knew it to be impossible for someone to be that perfect, and then he proved me wrong. I actually think that he is god. You have no idea how perfect he is in every way possible!

So, we ended up sitting on a stoop on campus, and he asked me how I was feeling about the whole thing. And I said that I was still confused. And that I'd have to go on being confused i guess. We started kissing, then making out with such an intense passion. Breaths were coming in heaves and groans, and then hands began to wander and explore, and rub and caress and there was love biting, and more and more desire just pouring out of every second and exploding through my skin, and with the heat then, clothes began melting away and our touches became more and more erotic and sensual, and he knew just every button to press and in just the right way and I was learning a million things at the speed of light as our bodies were quivering and pulsing with every gyration and sensitive stimulation. And throughout it all, we were entirely in tune with what the other wanted and vocalized our passions and our yearnings to make something that was more than anything else imaginable. My entire body was actually tingling as if I was about to spontaneously combust and burst into flames and energy! And he asked my permission every step of the way and I loved every second! Afterward, he kept saying how awesome I was!!!! It was the best experience beyond what I ever could have imagined, above and beyond the best first time that anyone ever could have asked for, and the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. I am a whole new person now and I could actually die happy tomorrow if the Universe so chose. Thank you to whatever higher power is out there listening. You like me, you really like me!

P.S. An interesting little detail. I stopped before i was finished, and I think it made it even better.

P.S.S. I'm still feeling the sheer perfection, elation, bliss, euphoria and ecstasy that happened early this morning.

 

wow, congrats man. im actually jealous of your situation, its very hard to come by a connection like that.
even though this situation may complex things, i hope you discover things about yourself, and you progress.
so you're still with the girl right?

 

yeah, and he is completely okay with that. But since this development, I'm starting to talk to her about everything and we're working things out. She and I are waiting until she comes to visit on the fifteenth to decide what we're doing. Always better to meet in person, that's what I've learned. She's been really understanding about everything, considering. I'm so lucky with the people that I've found in this world. So undeserving! I guess that that is that. sometimes life works out. We'll see where it goes from there on that note. Thanks for the congrats! I wish that it could have been recorded or something. Memory is only so able to capture it all. And certainly couldn't contain all the splendor of that time. I wish that there were emotion recorders honestly; that would be such a profitable invention!!! If you could just replay the emotions and feelings you felt at the time. I feel like I'm going to be chasing the dragon for the rest of my life. Not that I'm ever going to be addicted, but I just can't comprehend that anything will ever live up to that, no experience ever, ever, ever!!! So Amazing!

 

Actually, in your first post I was amazed at your writing skills and was thinking that you should give porn a try. You are very expressive with the written word and I think you did a good job of conveying the emotional involvement of the moment.

I going to suggest you to do something I never did. Keep a journal.

Well your entry here is likely to stay for a long time, and a blog would be nice, but an old fashioned notebook or something you can refer back to would be appreciated some day when you are wracking your memory for the feelings of the moment. (Altho, some feelings like the one you just expressed will remain with you for decades) Just a thot.

 

thanks Shale. I had good inspiration I guess.

 

I forgot one of the best parts...he growled like a wolf when I hit the right spots! And it drove me wild!

 

that's hot

 

Oh Dear, you've created a monster you know, you wont really get it till later on but you have.


The girlfriend, no matter how civil she is about the situation, how amicable the break up is...doesnt matter, there are aspects to this that are going to get her angry and confused, aspects that really have nothing to do with you.

Even if she wasnt really that into you, saw it coming, had a fair idea you were that way before you said anything out loud to her, in her head she is still going to wonder things like - Am I the type of girl that attracts bi/gay guys. Am I myself attracted more so to bi/gay guys than the rest. Next couple of boyfriends theres always going to be that insecurity at the start- "Oh, is this going to go the same way as Lurd?". Then also insecurities like didnt he like me cos I was too fat, or do I attract bi guys cos I'm too skinny or flatchested or cos I act too boyish?

No matter how it goes, what it means is that all the anger and frustration over those kind of thoughts, fears and insecurities is going to surface down the track the instant she encounters another gay guy in real life.

And if you do stick to the hairier side of the fence from now on, you'll encounter girls like her with what seems like an increasing regularity, and have a better understandindg as to the real reasons that half of the population hates us

 

vanillagorilla...as always you have an interesting take on this but umm....no. She's a completely secure, whimsical free spirit and she's not psychotic/neurotic... thanks though!

 

you had sex on the stoop of a campus building?

 

^^
I was kinda wonderin about that detail myself... I've seen some hot libraries but the front door step is a helluva location. Wish I was enrolled in some of that. Lurd, I don't know what you're studying but I'd give you and "A" for that class presentation. See if the security cameras caught any of it and you've already got the porn Shale was talkin about.

 

That was my main thought.
Awful lot of disrobing and howling for a stoop of a campus building.

 

Dude, theres no such thing, they are all neurotic

Doesnt matter how civil she acts, its an act


Put the shoe on the other foot, she meets a new girl friend, they get it on, she tells you it was the most amazing sexual experience of her life, and you'd be totally secure? booooolllshit

 

In your opinion

 

Are you still angry at me?

 

Not angry but frustrated when you state things as absolutes. Different people experience their world in different ways. Using a buffer in your statements such as; "in my experience" or "in my opinion" Will allow people to understand where you're coming from without making it sound like its your way or its wrong. Just a kinder way of expressing your own valid experiences, thats all.

 

Well that's just sexist.

No, it really isn't. She wouldn't even know neurotic if it came and bit her on the butt. lol.

That would be so hot!

 

Yeah, definitely a memorable first experience! If we were caught on camera, all the better.

 

Not meant to break your stones, but I am still quite curious as to where all the "action" took place.

You paint such a great picture with your words, my mind is just having a difficult time with the entire portrait of this all happening outdoors on a college campus. If that's where it happened then my hat off to you. If at some point you moved indoors or a more private location I'd love to know, because your portrait is pretty smokin hot, so I just want to imagine how it all went down-so to speak.

I hope everything works out great for your woman, your man, and yourself.

Edit:
I see you answered-nice-I'd love to see a tape if one exists.

 

Yep, there were steps leading up to one of the buildings on campus. I honestly didn't even realize where exactly we were until afterward when we went to head back to the dorms, and I realized that we were actually less than a minute from them. The way we got there had completely thrown me off. We sat on the steps to rest, and then one thing led to another, and...yeah, that's where it all happened, right there, on the steps, big, wide-open area...lol. Nobody was around, and if they were, boy did they get a show!